It was raining again today, but I guess I really couldn’t tell you that it had rained the last weeks. I’ve just heard from other people that it had. The drops trailed down my window, each one taking a different path than the first one. Taking a deep breath slumped down further into my seat, put my headphones in my ears, and flipped on my ipod.

Once more I’ll say goodbye to you

Things happen but we don’t really know why

If it’s suppose to be like this

Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss

Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears

I’m not feeling this situation

Run away find that safe place you can hide

It’s the best place to be when you’re feeling like

Me, me yeah, yeah all these things I hate revolve around

Me, me, yeah, yeah just back off before I snap

Once more you tell those lies to me

Why can’t you just be straight up with honesty

When you say those things in my ear

Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear

Long story short, I was a “bad kid.” I’m the kind of kid that parents pray that their kids don‘t grow up to. Sadly I almost took satisfaction in this. I wanted to piss people off like they piss me off. But I won’t blame it on my parents or anybody or anything. This is who I am, a fuck up. I’ve accepted it along time ago. Now it’s time for everyone else to as well. Shit happens to me all the time. This was my way of giving the world and fate a big fuck you. If it couldn’t show mercy than I didn’t want its fucking sympathy. Just back off, and let me self destruct. It’s what everyone’s been doing ever since…