Well it has been a couple hours since aiden left…Im laying in my bed and listening to the radio and with that i thought "wow i just said my bed, it was once considered our bed" and a tear slowly slid down my cheek.

I was laying here singing along to Bubba Sparx "mrs. new booty" and when that song came to an end…on came Rascal Flatts "what hurts the most" and i sat listening to the words for a moment…

RASCAL FLATTS "WHAT HURTS THE MOST" 

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

I felt the tears welling up in my eyes threatening to spill over…that song reminds me so much of her…i start to cry and i cant handle this song anymore so i get up and change the station just to catch the last part of Mariah Carey "We Belong Together" and i listen to the ending…