Spencer sat at the bar at Grey, watching the girl that she was secretly in love with. She had never spoken to her. She had never told anyone about how she felt. She had watched Ashley ever since she saw her that first day at King High. Spencer felt herself falling at that moment. Ever since then she was consumed by the brunette. Just like every Friday night, Spencer came to Grey to watch the older girl perform a couple of songs. She watched in complete awe. She watched so that she wouldn’t miss Ashley as much as any other night.

And I’d give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now

Spencer swore that the brunette looked at her. Looked straight through her, or straight into her heart. But she tried to convince herself that it was an overactive imagination. But it made her savor the fact that she was sitting there, listening to the brown eyed girl’s beautiful voice. Every song felt like it was specifically for her.

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight

Spencer wanted to tell her that she loved her. That she would take care of her. Take all of her pain away. But she didn’t want to share the girl with everyone else. Call her selfish, but it was the truth.

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Spencer had never told anyone, but she had seen Ashley at her best and her worst. She could read her heart. She could hear the song playing in her heart. She could feel what she really wanted. Even when Ashley’s life seemed too surreal and lavish due to the amount of money she had in her possession.

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive