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"Miss me?"

"Mom, what the hell are you doing here?"  I get out as she puts me back in my chair.

"I just wanted to see my baby."  She sits on my bed and I go over to her.

"But what about all that stuff you said."  I ask not knowing what she was pulling.

"I was not thinking, but now that I have thought about things I want to say I am sorry and that I love you."  She says while hugging me.  I get a whiff of her breath and smell the alcohol.  God I don’t want to end up like this, like her.

"Mom, I think you need to leave."  She pulls back from me and tries to focus on my face.

"Spencer just talk to your father for me.  I can’t stay in that hotel anymore."  She begs while gripping my arms tightly.

"Alright mom, I will talk to dad.  Why don’t you leave before he gets home?"  She nods and stumbles out of the door.  I follow to make sure she leaves.  God what a day.  I throw away the bottle and promise not to turn to alcohol again.  I don’t know what I was thinking.  I get ready for bed and pull myself into bed.  I lay there thinking, maybe I was too harsh on Ashley.  I tried not to assume, yet that is exactly what I did.  I reach over for my phone.  It could be the alcohol that was still in my system, but I need to do this before I lose my nerve.   

"Spencer, what is it?"

"Ashley can we meet somewhere and talk tomorrow."

"Really talk, you will listen to what I have to say."  I guess I deserve that.

"Yes, I will listen.  So how about the beach?"

"Okay, meet me at 10:00."

"Alright, goodnight."

"Goodnight."  I hang up and go to sleep without much trouble.

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 The next morning I eat breakfast with my dad, but all he seems to want to talk about is the new therapists Darlene.  God, don’t tell me he has a crush on her.  Should I bring up mom now or later?  I look to the clock and see that it is almost 9:30.  Okay later it is, I ask to be excused and go into the living room.