Part 18

The escape… in the mirror

„Hello Tina, it’s Jamie.“ I was completely disturbed, the feelings flowing through me caused total disorder. „Jamie, you know, the woman from the Planet and from the park this evening?” “Of course I know who you are, I just didn’t expect your call that soon.” “Well, I thought perhaps we could meet next Saturday, having dinner?” “On which Saturday, the 4th?” “Exactly. I would choose a nice restaurant and fetch you then towards 8.” “To tell the truth, I am not in the mood for very crowded places these times. What do you think of me simply preparing us something nice and we’ll have dinner here at my place? “„Okay, agreed, I’ll bring along the wine. “„Do you like fish?” “Yes, very much indeed. What do you want to prepare by the way?” “Hey, don’t be nosy, let me surprise you.” Jamie laughed at the other end of the phone. “Okay, until Saturday then, I am looking forward to it.” “See you on Saturday, bye. “

As Saturday moved near I became more uneasy and more uncertain if it really was a good idea to invite Jamie to my place, here into our house? But on the other hand, it has been over two years ago when you went away, Bette. I do have the right for a little love, a little bit of tenderness. Yes exactly, that was the actual reason why I invited Jamie here. I want to be free and ready, if the opportunity emerged, if we wanted it both. Then I would not like to be at a public place having to think about it and finally end up with that terrible phrase: To my or your place? I hate these instants, therefore I wanted to avoid them right from the start this time. Yes, Jamie had done it to me, had softened my heart or better to say, had ensured that I felt like still having a heart at all. No, no butterflies there, that would be a little too exaggerated; but simply just the beautiful feeling to be desired, that someone is there, which looks at you in a different way than the rest of the world. No, it was just right like that, like it was, correct the way I had decided it.