Alices cries were interrupted by a faint knock on the door. What do you want me to do? Alice asked with sympathy in her voice. I cant deal with her right now.
As Bette turned to walk away having second thoughts about coming by and hoping that maybe her call went unheard, the door opened. Bette knew that Alice was disappointed just by the look on her face. Hey
Is she here? Bette seemed numb, Alice knew she was hurting but her emotions overpowered her.
What the ***** were you thinking?
I wasnt. What have I done?
Alice hugged her in an effort to reassure her that she was there for her as well. You know the one thing I knew when we were together is that I didnt have to worry about you not being loyal. This isnt you Bette. I feel like I dont know you at all.
Bette knew she deserved that and perhaps worse. Although consumed in her own pain Bette realised that Alice was preoccupied with something.
Whats going on? Bette prodded.
Alice seemed puzzled, What do you mean?
Come on you know you cant hide. Bette smiled, Talk to me?
Alice hesitated but eventually succumbed to Bettes stare.
Alice looked away and after a long sigh confessed, I think Im in love with Dana. I know I am.
Gosh, how are you doing? Bette didnt seem surprised. She had mixed feelings where Dana and Alice were concerned. It was hidden most of the time but there were times where Alice feelings just couldnt be concealed. Alice didnt answer but Bette knew her friend was hurting. Did something happen?
Alice planted her head into Bettes shoulder almost embarrassed I kissed Dana. I dont know why. But I couldnt see her marry Tonya. God I hate Tonya. Am I a bad person? I am selfish.
Bette gave her an empathetic look. Dont worry about it. Danas Dana
Yeah
They sat in each others arms for a few moments. Bette kissed Alice on the forehead I have to go. Tell Tee her voice almost cracked
Tell Tee what?
Never mind.. Bette walked away quickly to avoid breaking down in front of Alice.
When Alice got back inside Tina was still crying Um Tee Alice tried to find the words but she realised that there was nothing she could have said that could take away Tinas pain.
As Bette walked back home thoughts of what happened earlier haunted her. How could I have been so ***** stupid? For a piece of *****? Why did I lose control? And then Alices words come back to her I feel like I dont know you. When she got home, she hesitated a bit before opening the door. She knew that Tina would not be there to greet her. She turned on the radio in an attempt to escape the deafening silence. The radio announcers voice was comforting. She left the radio on that night. She could not bring herself to sleep on the bed she and Tina shared. The couch seemed to suffice. As she awoke from a thirty-minute nap, which seemed to her like forever the sound of Sacrifice by Anouk was playing. Tears flowed uncontrollably. Her heart was breaking. Not so much for her as it was for Tina. She knew that she was the reason for Tinas tears. Tina didnt deserve this and she knew it.