CHAPTER FIVE

I saw Tina two days ago and every time I think of our encounter the first thing that comes to mind is oh my god. My walk home from the planet was a blur. The sun is no longer an irritation now it shines with promise. Now I need to get focused, get my act together. Ive decided to take a few weeks off of work. I landed provocations I deserve a little time to get my relationship back on track. Im going to make the house spotless, Im going to make me spotless. Im not stupid I know that I have a whole lot of work to do, but now I know that Im going to be working towards something.
I called Kit today. I apologised for ***** things up with Tina, for ignoring her calls, for pretending she isnt standing outside my front door all night. I asked her to come round later.
I know, when I think about it now, how much Ive ignored all the people that I love. I have no excuses for what I did with Candace because there are so many people that I could have reached out to. I guess thats one of the biggest problems I have to deal with. My stubborn pride nearly ruined everything. I have to realise that Im not perfect a relationship is made of two people but I was too busy trying to do everything. Tina needs her freedom, its time for me to face facts she doesnt need me for everything. The doorbell rings and I think about how that doesnt need to be a bad thing as I go to answer it. I wonder how Kit got here so fast? I open the door and my mouth drops open. T? Shes stood infront of me and her dress is ripped, her knee is cut and bleeding. I panic immediately. What happened? Did somebody do this to you? T who did this?
She frowns What? Oh the knee. I was walking down the street and somebody was washing their car. I walk past them trip over the hose and suddenly Im on the floor She grumbles looking down at her dress. I just bought this She complains running a hand over the gaping hole in the white cotton.
I breath a sigh of relief. Thank god for that She glares at me. I mean thank god that it was only that I usher her inside, closing the door behind us. Ill buy you a new one I grimace after Ive said it I mean…
You should buy me a new one She teases walking into the kitchen. I follow her like a puppy, my tongue practically hanging out of my mouth. How could I have possibly forgotten how amazing this woman is?
Ill just, Ill get the first aid kit. You just sit down, dont do anything She smiles in amusement as I fumble through the kitchen cupboards.
Its the next one She tells me. I purse my lips. Ive even neglected my house. I take the first aid kit out and kneel infront of her.
Do you want me to…?
Sure I kneel down infront of her holding a ball of disinfectant soaked cotton wall in-between two fingers.
This might sting a little I press it to the cut, glancing up every so often to check her reaction. She smiles down at me. I place a plaster over the now clean cut and resist the urge to kiss it better. I stand up brushing down my shirt. Ive missed you I practically whisper, looking down at my bare feet shyly.
Ive missed you too. I figured youd be too afraid to call so I decided to stop by She stands up so were infront of each other.
Im glad you did We smile at each other. This reminds me of the first time we met. When you came to that opening. You looked so beautiful
So did you. I knew the second I saw you that you were going to change my life. I knew, even before I admitted to myself, that I wanted to be with you
I know I felt that too She takes a step forward wrapping her arms around my waist and resting her head against my shoulder. I close my eyes, savouring the feel of her holding me as I hold her. This, this right here is exactly how things should be. She looks up and suddenly were kissing. Her lips touch mine in a way that drives me wild. I kiss her hard pressing my body against her, desperately trying to feel as much of her as I possibly can. I can feel her hands slip under the back of my shirt covering my skin with goose bumps with every brush of her fingertips. I groan into her lips, our tongues touching feverishly. She pulls away panting into my ears. I have never wanted somebody so badly.
I have to… She clutches me even tighter. …Im not ready for us to make love yet. I want us to, I just want it to be perfect
I understand I say returning my lips to hers. She pulls away again, shaking her head,
I wont not make love to you if we keep kissing like that She explains.
Ok, ok I get it Ill just…
Maybe you could just hold me? I want to cry at how soft and delicate she sounds right now. My Tina, my T, my baby. I pull her to me, my arms encircling her waist. We just stand here in the kitchen me holding her. Time has become irrelevant and I couldnt tell you whether weve been stood like this for ten minutes or an hour. All I know is that right now Im in heaven.
Everybodys going to milk tonight Her muffled voice tells me breaking the silence. I thought maybe you could come?
Of course She breaks away from my embrace and I feel like Ive lost a limb.
Good. Well I have to go and get myself ready. Well meet at about eight?
Eight I repeat smiling.
Ok well then its a date She grins, and so do I. She presses one last kiss to my lips and then she leaves. Its a date, my mind repeats as I smile optimistically.