Sitting here I keep thinking to myself why? Why would I do this to someone that I love? I feel like Im going nuts. All this feelings that I am feeling. But its all my doing and I know it. I made the decision to sleep with Candace with out really thinking about what it was going to do to Tina and I relationship. You know when you really think about it what did Candace really mean to me anyways. Nothing! It was all lust. She was someone that made me want to get laid. That is all. Still I just cant believe I went though with it just for a piece of *****. And what if Tina never wants to see me again? Then what do I do? Loose the most wonderful woman on this earth? I really wish that I had someone to talk about this with. I dont think it would be wise to talk with anyone in the group. Maybe that Dan would be the right one. At least that Tina and I have been there and knows about some of the problems. (Bette reaches for the phone looks for Dans number finds it and calls his office.)

A couple hours later at Dans office.I better get out of the car because other wise I will never get to the appointment. (Bette gets out of the car and walks up to the building where Dans office is located at.) I cant believe I am here without Tina. I mean this is the person who was supposed to be helping us talk to each other. Though really I believe I am the one that messed up and now I have to figure out how I am going to fix this problem. (Bette walks up to the desk and tells the receptionist that she is there for her appointment.) Dan comes out and asks Bette to come into his office. So Bette what seems to be on your mind? Dan Asks. Well things are so screwed up right now. Tina left me. I cheated on her with a woman that I hired to help out the CAC with a big project that we got. I feel like such a loser. I keep on trying to figure out why I would do such a thing. Because when I look back the whole situation it really wasnt worth it. I lost the one thing in my life that actually meant something to me. I just really want to know how to fix this. How can I make it better?

Well, Bette sounds like things are a bit crazy in your life right now. And to be honest with you there is no easy way to fix a problem like this. A thing like this can happen for many reasons but the best thing that you can do is try to speak with Tina. Have you tried to talk with her since the night she left you? No, I havent tried to speak with her because I am afraid of call her and what if Tina hangs up on me? Besides I dont know what to say to her. How do I approach her? Well I suggest that you try to contact her. See if you both are able to speak to each other about it. I know that Tina must be crushed, especially after loosing the baby. Ok, that sounds like an idea I can handle. Bette says. Well Bette our time is up if you need to talk again feel free to make another appointment ok. Thanks Dan.

Walking out of Dans office Bette was feeling a bit sadder. God, hearing that from Dan just made me feel worse. I mean duh, I should have known that me sleeping with another woman was going to do this kind of damage to me and Tina. But one thing I do know is that I sure as ***** wasnt thinking about Tina or how all of this would hurt our relationship when I slept with Candace. I was being completely selfish. I think back to how I was feeling at the time before Candace came along and I know I was lost. Tina and I were not talking to each other like we should have been and I was so unsure about how I was feeling about her. But its not an excuse for my actions though. I know I can keep asking myself the what ifs but that wont change what has happened. I know that I cant take back meeting Candace nor can I take back sleeping with her. I just wonder how am I going to make it up to T? Maybe I should call Alices and see if Ts there? Not that I think she would speak with me but it doesnt hurt to try. I never in my life ever thought that I would feel so lost. Tina was my life. My everything. Just seeing the sparkle in her eye when she was happy made me feel so happy. Its just so hard to figure out how it got lost. Or maybe Kit would know what to do? What are sisters for? (Bette decides to call Kit on the phone and see if they can meet up for lunch.)
Kit? Hey this is your sister Bette. I wanted to know if you wanted to meet up for lunch. I really need to talk with you. Sure baby sister, sounds like a great idea. When and where? Kits asks. Ill pick you up in an hour. We can decide from there. Ok, see you then Bette.