Claire cried and she broke my heart. I mean hearing her cry, broke my heart. I never meant to hurt her. I looked at Claire, then at Vanessa, back at Claire. God I thought. She’s so beautiful. I know that it was weird to think that after I just broke her heart by cheating on her. But hey, that’s me now. A cheater. Such an ugly word and now it appears to me. I couldn’t imagine that. I thought about all the beautiful moments we had together. About the fact that she chose me from the beginning. But then I thought that it hadn’t been as hard for Claire as it had been for Vanessa. Or so I thought.

Kenny comes up to me. ”Rose” he says as he gives me a high five. I try to smile. But I can’t fool Kenny. He knows me like no other. ”So” he asks. ”What happened?”.  I sigh. ”I’m such a bad person, Kenny.” I say. ”Talk to me. I’ll listen.” He looks worried, but also a little bit curious. ”Promise not to tell?”. ”Pinky swear” he says and I can’t help but laugh. And there it goes. I explain everything from the very beginning till the end.

”So what happened?” he asks.

”I just told you what happened.” I say while I’m trying not to cry.

”After that. I mean after you kissed Vanessa and Claire saw it.”

”Nothing” I say.

”What do you mean? It can’t be nothing, Rose.”

”Oh okay, well. I said I’m sorry.”

”To Claire?”

”To both of them.”

”Both of them?”

”yes! are you surprised?”

”I have to think about that.”

For a few seconds we say nothing.

”I guess I’m not surprised.”

So I apologized. Then I said: “You two can better go now.” I wanted them to stay. But I couldn’t ask them to stay both. That was not an option. So I chose the easy way. I let them leave. It was the saddest birthday party in history.

I see Claire running to her next class. Vanessa stands by her locker. Immediately I feel the need to talk to them. Then I remember. I can’t do that.

Maybe it’s better like this.

I don’t know. I can’t choose.

I love them both.

But like I said.

That’s not an option.