I was so scared, what would I do if she left me. I’d have no one. And even though Madison claims she’ll be around, I know that she’ll easily take Jessica’s back over mine. God, I was so scared. She must have seen that cause at one point she reached over the center console and placed her hand lightly on my thigh. I sign of condolence. She didn’t even push to find out what was wrong with me. She knew I would come to her.

            When we pulled up to the beach and walked to our spot under the pier hand in hand. We walked in silence, letting the sound of the waves and the smell of the sand wash over our bodies, allowing us to fall into complete relaxation. Well, it let her fall into complete relaxation, I on the other hand was still pretty tense… knowing what I had to tell her.

We reached our spot and sat down facing each other, but I still hadn’t reached a conclusion as to what I was going to say.

“I didn’t want to ask but… what’s wrong Ash? You’ve had the same look on your face the whole way here.”

I still didn’t speak.

“Ashley?… Ashley, baby?”

“I don’t know what to say… or how to say it.”

“How bout you just start from the beginning, breathe, and tell me what’s going on.”

“I hate myself. That night with Spencer, last weekend, something happened,” I stopped there for a moment and took a deep breath. But she had this look on her face, like she knew. I went on anyways, “She told me she had feelings for me, that she always had and then… and then she kissed me. And I kissed her back. And I’m so sorry, Jessica I’m so sorry.”

She didn’t say anything at first, actually she didn’t say anything for a while, and I was starting to wonder if she was going to at all. So I opened my mouth to speak but she beat me to it.

“I know.”

“You know?”

“I’ve always known. When we were friends, you would talk about Spencer 24/7. Everything was Spencer this, Spencer that. I knew you had feelings for her, it was so obvious. You’d have to be blind not to see how you felt for her. When you guys broke apart, I saw that as my chance… my chance to make you love me. I knew it was impossible though, because with the way you feel about her, no one stands a chance.”