All Characters are the creation of the Showtime Series the L-Word

Bette, Candice, Tina: Scene 6 Bettes Tears.
LYRICS : By Sarah McLachlan: Black And White

As Bette arrives too her empty home, she pushes the play button of the remote to the CD player thinking maybe some music will help her not think anymore about this whole situation shes created for herselfshe didnt want to think anymoreshe was tired of trying to analyze what she thought was obviously the beginning of a break downshe stopped herself from that train of thoughtOk she says to herselfJust relax you need to unwind a bit before you can begin to think straight again. Her thoughts travel to a distant place as it slowly attaches itself to the lyrics of the song that was playing

Lyrics: Unrrrravel me (pause) Distant Cord Candice she thinks, please help unravel me. Oh God your doing such a good job at it.

Lyrics: On the outside
is forgotten
Constantly
to get along Thats Me. See what you want to see, and Im getting so tired of this *****.

Lyrics: and thewhat the ***** is she saying An the Bomb awakens? Im gonna have to look up those lyrics that drives me crazy not to know what the ***** shes say there. She picks up the CD cover opens it up and looks up the wordsOh she thinks as she reads The animal awakens.

Lyrics: And all I Feel is Black and White.

She begins to undress, stepping out of her shoes and taking off her shirt, but sits down on the couch exhausted as if those actions alone was enough to drain her totally and she couldnt possibly dredge up enough energy to do another thingShe covers her face with both hands pressing her fingertips against her eyelids hoping to coax the slowly approaching headache to retreat.

Lyrics The Road is Long
Memory slides
to the whole of my undoing
Couldnt sight,
I put away,
I push it back to get thru each day.
And all I Feel
is Black and White
And Im wound up small and Tight
And I dont know who I am. Her memory floats back to Tinas reaction to Marcus as a donor all that otherness ***** You Tina she says aloud. The painful words come back to her Im not prepared to be a mother of a HALF Afro-American childshe wonders if Tina even realized how painful those words were or what they revealed, No of course not! She was disgusted and scared and still had the nerve to be upset with me. Oh God! What did I get myself into.


Lyrics: everybody Loves you when Your easy Thats right when Im White
everybody Hates when youre a Bore Anger floods her body as she thinks, Yeah when I bring up being Black and the issues attached to that.
everybody is waiting for your entrance yeah what door do I use?
So dont disappoint them now I have to make a choice and everyone is waiting to see what that isand some how its all tangled up in this whole Black White thingShit.

Lyrics: Unravel Me
Untie This Cord
The very center of our union
Its Caving In.
I Cant endure.
I Am the Archive of our Failure.
And all I Feel
is Black and White
And Im wound up
small and Tight
And I dont know
who I am. Tina, I cant do this anymore. I dont think I even want to. Oh God how am I going to do this? Why, why did you have to show me this part of you, how could you have possibly loved me or claimed to love me when you cant even connect to who I am. Who I am! Who did I give my love too?Who did I trust to love me? As the realization began to sink in that she has reached a decision she begins to break down, trying to hold the tears back as not to overcome her all at oncebut slowly they find there way as her whole body begins to feel the intensity of all her fears, and the pain of the loss of her hopes explodes within overcoming her, washing her with grief so strong it makes her body shake as she allows the release of itrocking herself trying to control the outpouring of pain. She allows her tear soaked hands to catch the outpour of muffed cries of pain and tearsshe would cry into the night until it exhausted her into the first good night sleep shes had in weeks.

Lyrics: everybody Loves you when Your easy.
everybody Hates when youre a Bore.
everyone is waiting for your
entrance.
Sooooooo
dont disappoint them


everybody Loves ya when Your easy
So donnnnnnnnt disappoint them
donnnnnnnnnnnt disappoint them
donnnnnnnnnnnt disappoint them
donnnnnnnnnnnt disappoint them
donnnnnnnnnnnt disappoint them.


End of Scene.

2004 LDS