I love you Her words dont even have to register in my mind before my jaw is almost touching the ground. I cant breath, can barely think. Shes standing infront of me her pose confident her trembling hands betraying the way she really feels. Suddenly my cosy kitchen, that used to be filled with such comforting sounds, is silent, like the refrigerator decided that today would be the day that it would run soundlessly, like it decided that it should add to the pressure that I can feel myself sinking into. I steady myself against the counter top, looking into those chocolate brown eyes that seem so strangely open and gentle. I gulp down the knot in the back of my throat. How did I get here so quickly?
Less than a month ago if you would have told me that I would be standing here infront of this amazing woman, listening to her telling me that she loves me, I wouldnt have believed it. In fact its all still so hard for me to understand even now, even after all the time Ive spent with her. The Tina that I am now is not the Tina that I used to be. I guess youre wondering what kind of Tina I used to be…

I wait patiently in the lobby watching, with arms folded, as Eric charms the girl at reception into giving us a room with a balcony.
Its oddly discomforting how simple everything in my life has seemed to have gotten within the last few months, My career in developing has sky rocketed, and Im feeling more motivated than Ive felt in years. My relationship with Eric is still going strong, and judging by his hints and suggestions marriage is definitely on the cards. Hes a good man really, interesting and handsome…but, I sigh out loud, it just doesnt feel right, feels stagnant almost. This feeling thats settling over me, this feeling that things are about to get really shaken up.
Ready babe? Eric asks, distractedly as he checks his watch. We have an hour to get to that opening
An hour! I exclaim.
Im sorry, what can I say? He asked arms outstretched in apology.
Maybe if you hadnt spent so long working on that balcony Id have longer to change I complain entering his embrace anyway.
Look Tina if this is too much then just stay at the hotel. Order room service, soak in a hot bath He tells me hugging me against him.
I think about it, tempted by the idea of warm luxurious bubbles. But I dont know something is telling me that I really dont want to miss out on tonight. No I think Ill come anyway. I can relax later