I know when tomorrow shines, I’ll have to go get Angelica and try to put on my happy face for her, I don’t want my daughter seeing me like this. I also know when tomorrow beams its head around, Bette is going to want to talk to me. I think about the look on her face tonight, she looked lost, just how I feel right now. Her voice plants itself on repeat in my mind, I know I have to listen to her but I just feel like giving her all my anger and pain and I want to bare what she has to say to me. I just built back my trust for her, for our relationship, my thoughts keep asking me will I believe what she has to say to me? Do i believe her confession when she told me what happened on that video tape? I just know I need some time. I feel my eyes starting to weaken from all the crying they’ve done tonight.

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Bette’s POV

Kit had decided to stay the night in the spare bedroom, she told me she didn’t want to leave me alone.

I lay here in my bed after Kit had helped my weak body change into something more comfy.

All I can think about is Tina, the love of my life. Why did she have to find out this way? The look on her face cuts me like a knife, maybe its what I deserve after taking a snails pace to tell her the truth, first of all where did she find that damn footage? Was it here at the house all this time? Did Jenny have it poked somewhere?

“Tina, I need for you to believe me.” I speak softly out loud to myself before my eyes begin to fill with tears.

I can’t lose her, she means more to me then my own life. I know I need to give her time but I don’t have time to wait, I need to make her understand what she saw was not what she thinks it is, I want to ease her from her pain that was written on her face tonight.

I need Tina to learn why I waited so long to tell her, I need her to forgive me. Even if this means she doesn’t want me working with Kelly anymore, I’ll do it. I just need her to know I love her more than life itself and I would never hurt her like the way I did in the past.