For a brief moment, Bette thought she was in heaven…..feeling the touch of Tina’s skin on hers, the same moans that she remembered from their love making before all of the ***** blew up……
Tina leaned away from Bette……” I can’t do this right now…please….”
“No. I understand…I will wait as long as you want me to……I will wait forever, T…forever if that’s what it takes to have you again….”
“Just hold me.” whispered Tina as she began to cry.
Bette held Tina close to her for the rest of the night, until morning came and she was awaken by Tina shuffling things around in the room…..Bette turned over on her side, and propped her hand up to rest her head….’She is so beautiful’ she thought to herself…’How could I ever have done this to us….. now is my chance to try and make things right..’ Bette watched for a few more minutes…Tina was walking around putting clothes in drawers and setting all of her personal things up…She didn’t like being away from home nor did she like living out of a suitcase, and even though they were only staying for a week, she wanted to be more comfortable.
“Tina, what do you want to do today?” asked Bette..
“Dammit, you startled me…I don’t know…what do you have in mind?”
“I didn’t mean to scare you, bab…I mean, Tina. I don’t have a clue of what to do around here…I guess we can just start walking and if we come to something we want to do, then we’ll do it….”
“Ok…that sounds like a plan….I’m gonna go shower before we go, though…”
“ok…I’ll go ahead and get ready….”
“k.” said Tina as she smiled at Bette….
Bette sat back down on the bed and watched Tina walk away……..again….
An hour later, they left the suite and headed down the elevator and out the front door……they walked for hours, just looking at everything…taking it all in…
“This is so beautiful…” said Bette aloud..
“Yes, it is…” said Tina as she looked at Bette….”I could stay here forever..”
“You…..not me…..I have to have the city life…” said Bette as she smiled…
“Do you want a bite to eat?”
“Yea, that sounds great….”
They walked until they found a place that they could both agree on…..as they sat to eat….Bette decided to go into conversation with Tina.
“Tina, can we talk about things? I mean if it’s okay…”
“yea, sure….I think we need to.” said Tina as she sipped her drink.
“I want you to know how sorry I am about everything…..and I want you to know that I love you with all my heart…my life is not the same without you….I can’t stand the fact that you don’t want me to touch you…”
“I didn’t say that you couldn’t touch me…” blurted Tina….
“But…I thought…”
“Look Bette, this week is a trial thing….if we can be happy here then we can be happy anywhere…”
“Yea, I guess you are right…….but do you really want to stay here? I mean, I would really like to go back home…” said Bette…
“Well, if you want to go back home, we can…but, I can’t sleep in that bed…there are good memories there, but there are also bad ones, from the other night….”
“Yea, that’s one more thing that we need to talk about…….” said Bette as she looked down…” The *****….the other night.”
“Bette, I don’t really want to discuss that….”
“We need to…Tina….I want you to know that I didn’t mean to physically hurt you if I did…..all I wanted was to make love to you…and keep you with me..even though I had hurt you soo bad…..I wanted to do anything………….”
Tina just sat there saying nothing….
“Tina…I said I was sorry if I hurt you..”
“I heard you……..Bette, you really ***** scared me that night……I’ve never seen you like that…with so much anger, remorse, and hurt in your eyes…”
“I know…and I’m sorry.”
“Is your face okay?” asked Tina..
Bette rubbed her hand across her face, “It’s okay…but I had no idea that you could bite that hard….”
Tina smiled at the joke, then looked down…”You deserved it, you know…”
“I know….and the bad thing is, I deserve alot more where that came from…..but I don’t deserve you at all…”
“Bette, quit feeling bad for yourself…people make mistakes….”
“I know….but I hurt you so bad…and I hate myself for it…” said Bette.
“It’s okay, baby….it wasn’t just your fault…I was to blame too…I wasn’t there for you and when I lost the baby, I didn’t want to be there for you…*****, I didn’t want to be there for myself….I just wanted to die…”
“No, Tina….I don’t want you to ever feel like that….”
“I felt like you had totally ripped my heart out and stomped on it….all I could imagine is you and Candace in eachothers arms….”
“I am so sorry……” cried Bette…”so sorry baby……please, can we go home?”
“yea, if that’s what you want…”
“Tina, I feel like we are running away from our problems coming here….and I have this feeling that we were set up….to come here together anyway….our friends tried to come through for us……”
“Yea…” said Tina as she smiled….”They aren’t that slick…I figured that out before we even came here…”
“I guess I can pay them back for a wasted trip….”
“It wasn’t a wasted trip, B….we got to talk a little…” said Tina..
Bette paid the tab and they left to go back to the suite to pack…hours later, they were back home in their living room….sitting on the sofa…
“Watch a movie?” asked Bette.
“Sure…what do you have in mind?”
“I don’t know…what do you want to watch?”
“How about we watch ‘If These Walls Could Talk 2?”
“Great…” Bette got up and put it in the DVD player….then sat back down on the couch…
A few minutes into the movie…..”Can I lay down and hold you?” asked Bette….”like we used to….”
Tina stood up and motioned for Bette to lay down…..then she lay in front of her as Bette wrapped her arms around her….Tina let out a sigh…
“Are u okay?” asked Bette.
“It just feels so good to be laying here next to you….” said Tina…..a silence insued……..they watched the movie…
Bette got a little antsy laying next to Tina and not being able to touch her sexually…so, she decided to tread the water….
as she ran her hand up and down Tina’s arm, she began to kiss her on the neck slowly….then moved to her ear…tonguing and kissing it gently…
“Bette…” said Tina as she sighed aloud…
“Yes?”
“I’m so sorry, but I can’t right now….it’s too soon….”
“I understand baby.” said Bette as she wrapped her arms tightly around Tina…”It’s just hard to keep my hands off of you……I love you so much, and you are so ***** beautiful…..”
“I’m sorry that I can’t do that right now….I just need more time…”
“Okay…I told you before, I will wait forever if I have too.” said Bette as she pulled her closer…
They both laid there through the rest of the movie, then fell asleep……..and that’s where they stayed the whole night….on the sofa…in eachothers arms…..

TBC……………………………………………………………………………