Looking For Love

Chap. 1-What Do I Do With the Love

I can put away the letters
Hide them in the drawer
I can even forget what you sent them for
And I can take your name out of my book
I can put away the pictures
I can put the dreams aside
But I just can’t seem to put you out of my mind
So tell me now, oh

What do I do with the love, tell me baby
What do I do with the memories of
What do I do with the nights
Without you by my side
They used to be your’s and mine
Without you, what do I do with the love

“What,” Ashley asked in disbelief.

 Spencer lowered her head, ashamed of the pain she was inflicting on her lover. “I sad we can’t be together anymore,’ she finally admitted, “Ash, I’m sorry. I just think we need to experience other things.”

When Ashley didn’t respond Spencer cautiously walked over to her and grabbed her hand. Ashley immediately snatched her hand away and hissed, “Don’t fucking touch me.”

Spencer felt her heart shatter. “Ash please,” she pled.

Ashley felt her room closing in around her. This room had been a safe haven for Spencer and her for so long. It served as their escape from the bigotry of the world. Now the air seemed tainted and all the small reminders of their relationship caused Ashley to feel lightheaded. “Don’t say anything. You’ve said enough. Why don’t you just leave,” Ashley shouted.

Spencer persisted, “Ashley, I’m not leaving until you talk to me.”

 “Fine, if you won’t go then I will,” Ashley said as she pulled on her sneakers and walked towards the bedroom door.

Spencer stood in the doorway trying to block Ashley’s escape. “Ash, please stay and talk to me. I don’t want it to end on this note.”

“I don’t have anything to say to you right now. Now move the hell out of the way,” Ashley demanded as she pushed Spencer out of the way and stormed out of the room. Regaining her balance, Spencer gave chase but Ashley was surprisingly fast. She got to her car and drove off just as Spencer got to the front door.