"We’re going to be special.  I can feel it."

Spencer’s breathing had become heavy, and she could feel the blood rushing to her head.  I just kissed Ashley! ASHLEY! What is wrong with you Spencer!? Now she’s going to think I’m crazy…

"Wow…" This time it was Ashley’s turn to break the silence.

"Um…is that a good ‘wow’ or a bad one?  ‘Cos I didn’t mean to freak you out. Seriously.  I just had a ton of emotions running through me after what you said…and..yeah.  It just happened. I’m sorry" Wow I’ve been saying that a lot today, haven’t I?

"Spence you never have to be sorry for something like that.  Ever.  And besides…if I said that that didn’t mean something to me, I’d be lying." She gave Spencer a small smile.  What’s with that smile?  It looks like she’s nervous or something…is she really as nervous about this as me?  I doubt it…Ashley’s always been cool about everything.  I just wish I wasn’t so freaking scared right now

Ashley could tell Spencer wasn’t really there with her and that she was thinking about something. 

"Hey, it’s ok Spencer.  Really, it is.  I mean, I know it’s scary, the whole admitting that you like girls thing. But it gets better, honestly.  Well, not immediately, but eventually it does.  Things get a lot less confusing, and I promise, you’ll feel a lot better about yourself if you just accept it.  Come here."  She pulled Spencer into a much needed hug.

"Ashley?"

"Yeah Spence?"

"Please don’t let go of me.  Ever"  Spencer sighed into Ashley’s shoulder.

"I won’t, I promise."

After holding eachother for a few more minutes, they finally released.  Spencer looked a lot calmer, and she felt a lot better about the situation. 

"So, where do we go from here?" She asked.

"Well, I don’t really know.  I’ve waited a long time for this, waited for you to tell me that you like me, but now that it’s happening, it’s a lot more complicated than I had imagined.  I’m willing to do whatever you want though.  If you want to keep things a secret for now, I’m fine with that.  But, if you’d rather just come out with the whole thing, I’m game for that too.  It all depends on what you’re comfortable with.  Either way, I’ll be there with you the whole time."