Chapter 9

Spencer 12 in the Afternoon Ohio

Spencer was so confused with everything that was happening. Between her moving to LA in 6 days and her kissing Gabby twice, she had to get away from it all. So she went to the second best place, the school library and hides between the bookshelves so no one could find her until her next class which she had with Gabby.

Spencer: thinking to herself “what am I doing, I can’t do this, she’s my best friend and she’s a girl. I’m not gay. Oh my god what if my mother finds out, she’s going to freak out. I can’t do this, I gotta tell Gabby this had to stop.” The bell rings and she gets up, instead of going to her next class she heads out of the school and towards her house knowing that her parents aren’t going to be home. While walking home, she starts crying and says to herself, “I can’t do this, and even if I did want this I’m moving soon. I love Gabby, but not in that way, she’s my best friend and I’m not gay. I can’t be” no matter how much she tries to convince herself that she’s not gay, she knows its all a lie. She knew something was different about her when she would go out with guys and kiss them and feel nothing but when she kissed Gabby if felt different and that only confirmed it even more then she already knew. She gets to her house and goes straight to her room, lays down on her bed and cry’s herself to sleep.

She wakes up from the sound of someone knocking on her door.

Spencer: a little pissed that she was woken up from her sleep, “who is it.”

Arthur: “Its me honey can I come in”

Spencer: she sits up on her bed and straightens herself out “sure”

Arthur: “Hey…” walks in and closes the door behind him “how are you feeling?”

Spencer: “I’m fine” she lied

Arthur: “are you sure”

Spencer: looks at her father, then looks away and starts crying “no”

Arthur: “honey what’s wrong? Is it because of use moving to LA.”