For the hundredth time I looked over the cover on the Entertainment magazine I had picked up two days ago and once again lost myself in those eyes; in the pleasure of those soft lips, her body that responded strongly to my caresses. How my nerves vibrated beneath her ministrations while she whispered, her voice rasp with desire, delicious promises into my ear. But that was an eternity ago. At least that’s what it felt like.

The worst moments were when I would be skimming over students essays with the TV on in the background and there she would appear; her voice and body invoking the same heat and need as if she were physically in the room with me. Papers forgotten, pushed aside carelessly, I would kneel before the TV and lose myself in her virtual presence. Yes pathetic as it seemed those were also my best feeling moments. We never officially broke up. Our life’s paths went off in different directions, but for a while we looked back at each other for security and one day I looked back and was gone. All that was left of us now were the occasional emotionally empty e-mails.

Determined to escape the depression my thoughts were inciting, I headed out to the city streets hoping for a distraction. I lived on campus and never really journeyed very far from home. I had friends who lived close by and the community offered all sorts of entertainment. The type I needed now would not be offered from anything nearby. I would have to travel outside my comfort zone. I almost made it off campus grounds before a friend of mine hailed me ecstatically. It sounded like she would hyperventilate if I did not stop. Without turning around I waited for her to catch up.

“Hey Spence, I’ve been calling your name for the passed five minutes.” She grabbed my arm insuring I wouldn’t go anywhere. “I have amazing news. You’ll never guess who will be our celebrity for next week’s charity fund raiser.”

I pretended to think real hard then shrugged. “Tell me.”

“You claim you were friends with her in high school.” She smiled like I had just lost a bet and it was time to pay up.