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Best For Me – (Chapter: What is love but a bolt from the blue, what is a bolt but a glorified screw?)
Oh god what had she done? Spencer sank to the floor of the corridor and put her hands to her face. It was the first she’d felt of the tears that were now streaming down with alarming frequency. She’d been so numb from what Ashley had said, so blindsided and so stunned, that she literally didn’t know she was crying. And now she couldn’t stand up.
Shaking she hugged her knees to her chest and sobbed. She forgot everything, her children in the living room, her life waiting outside for her, and let the misery overtake. It wasn’t until she heard Alex wail, ready for another feed, that she let her head come up. The trails of tears that had criss-crossed her face left a dry, red swathe. The tremor in her hands and legs was strong; strong enough to make her need to steady herself on the wall as she got up.
Numb and cold she padded to the dining room and fed Alex. Elly caught her eye. The look of shock on her little face was instant, and flashed up so fast it caught them both by surprise. Spencer tried a wan smile but it wouldn’t come. She couldn’t even make it ok for her daughter, who was far too young to understand. The little girl padded over.
She leaned in to Spencer and watched Alex feed, one hand delicately curled around her mother’s knee, and the other making small circles on her mother’s back. Spencer bit her lip and held back new tears. Tears for the fact that her daughter was now comforting her, which felt so wrong. Tears for the fact that it was now the three of them, and their family was broken. Also so wrong. She held back everything and pulled herself together.
It lasted long enough for Alex to go down for his nap and Elly to be settled at the dining table colouring in. She looked happy enough but Spencer knew that she was still worried. She moved silently to her own bedroom and sat on her bed, leaving the door slightly ajar behind her. Curling up on her bed, and hugging Mr. Ruffles who had somehow found his way into her arms, she turned her face into the pillow and cried.
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oh my god…you can’t leave me hanging like this. Please update soon. Yes, I am aware of how needy I sound but after the season finale, I need a little closure. PMS!
Oh my god!!! That was such a great update. I can’t wait to see what will happen next and if Ashley and Spencer will ever get together, I HOPE!!!!! PMS and have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! You amaze me. yOu simply amaze me. I can not WAIT! Until your next chapter. Happy ending right? I mean, ashley takes her back and all? Please say yes. haha. You have managed to get me addicted to this story. It’s like lemon juice! You cant have just one bottle! hahahahaha. jk jk jk PMS sis. Lug ya!
Woohooo!!! Go get your gurl Spence :-) Clom, you are just the best. Thanks for such a great story.
I hope… all I can say is thank you… oh yeah happy new year have a good one… love your story
OMG OMG ur killing me here pms
I’m commenting elsewhere and writing you an email. Just so you know I’m not ignoring you. :)
Wow. You cant stop it there. Your teaseing me. Wonderful update. I`m so excited to see whats going to happen next. PMS.
PLEASE UD SOON!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS STORY! It is safe to say that it’s one of my faves!!!
oh my god…you can’t leave me hanging like this. Please update soon. Yes, I am aware of how needy I sound but after the season finale, I need a little closure. PMS!
Oh my god!!! That was such a great update. I can’t wait to see what will happen next and if Ashley and Spencer will ever get together, I HOPE!!!!! PMS and have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! You amaze me. yOu simply amaze me. I can not WAIT! Until your next chapter. Happy ending right? I mean, ashley takes her back and all? Please say yes. haha. You have managed to get me addicted to this story. It’s like lemon juice! You cant have just one bottle! hahahahaha. jk jk jk PMS sis. Lug ya!
Woohooo!!! Go get your gurl Spence :-) Clom, you are just the best. Thanks for such a great story.
I hope… all I can say is thank you… oh yeah happy new year have a good one… love your story
OMG OMG ur killing me here pms
I’m commenting elsewhere and writing you an email. Just so you know I’m not ignoring you. :)
Wow. You cant stop it there. Your teaseing me. Wonderful update. I`m so excited to see whats going to happen next. PMS.
PLEASE UD SOON!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS STORY! It is safe to say that it’s one of my faves!!!
YAAAY!! Go get your woman SPENCE!!
YAAAY!! Go get your woman SPENCE!!
Now that’s what I call a cliffhanger… My heart is racing for both Spencer and Ashley. This is simply the best, most heartfelt fanfiction on this site. i love it
Now that’s what I call a cliffhanger… My heart is racing for both Spencer and Ashley. This is simply the best, most heartfelt fanfiction on this site. i love it
one more frigging post?! are you trying to kill me, here!? and it better be good clom, with rainbows, sunshine, laughing children and make up hugging and sex and kisses! let them be happy, please *pouts, puts on puppy eyes, gets on knees and begs cos I know there’s nothing else I can do while I’m down there that will sway you*. Love this story – you best be starting something else/finishing 28 days as a way of lessening my withdrawal. love it and will miss it! big love Jx
one more frigging post?! are you trying to kill me, here!? and it better be good clom, with rainbows, sunshine, laughing children and make up hugging and sex and kisses! let them be happy, please *pouts, puts on puppy eyes, gets on knees and begs cos I know there’s nothing else I can do while I’m down there that will sway you*. Love this story – you best be starting something else/finishing 28 days as a way of lessening my withdrawal. love it and will miss it! big love Jx
I think, this might be the saddest thing I’ve read in a while……..The way Spencer feels….it all seems so real…..I loved this update….I felt like crying and laughing….Well….crying….’cause of the obvious..Laughing because Spencer thinks everyone is clueless about her “dysfunctional” relationship with Ashley when they really aren’t….Great job….as always….I hope you’ll post more soon!PS: Yay….I got my Mr.Ruffles fix ;)
I think, this might be the saddest thing I’ve read in a while……..The way Spencer feels….it all seems so real…..I loved this update….I felt like crying and laughing….Well….crying….’cause of the obvious..Laughing because Spencer thinks everyone is clueless about her “dysfunctional” relationship with Ashley when they really aren’t….Great job….as always….I hope you’ll post more soon!PS: Yay….I got my Mr.Ruffles fix ;)
Wow! Great chapter….the penultimate! Gray is amazing, some people can change-a tad too late but good for him nonetheless. And Aurthor is great too….but that’s a given…he is the best. Mixed feelings about the final chapter…bad-that means the end of the line for this story….makes me sad. good-we find out what happens (they ARE getting together right? ;-)). AND that means NEW stories! YEY!!! That makes me happy! HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2007 wooohooo!
Wow! Great chapter….the penultimate! Gray is amazing, some people can change-a tad too late but good for him nonetheless. And Aurthor is great too….but that’s a given…he is the best. Mixed feelings about the final chapter…bad-that means the end of the line for this story….makes me sad. good-we find out what happens (they ARE getting together right? ;-)). AND that means NEW stories! YEY!!! That makes me happy! HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2007 wooohooo!
Wow! That chapter was amazing! Loved it! And i can’t believe how wonderful Gray was, I think it was sweet how he was there for Spencer, i’m glad they can still be friends! And of course there’s nothing better than a Mr C moment to clear everything up =] Can’t wait for the next chapter! I’m gonna be upset when this story’s finished, it’s one of my favourites. Update soon! And Happy New Year!!
Wow! That chapter was amazing! Loved it! And i can’t believe how wonderful Gray was, I think it was sweet how he was there for Spencer, i’m glad they can still be friends! And of course there’s nothing better than a Mr C moment to clear everything up =] Can’t wait for the next chapter! I’m gonna be upset when this story’s finished, it’s one of my favourites. Update soon! And Happy New Year!!
what a magnificent welcome back present. i love you AT. and this story is the sex. (haha sorry, a saying here)i love your writing. :]
what a magnificent welcome back present. i love you AT. and this story is the sex. (haha sorry, a saying here)i love your writing. :]
yeah! right on arthur! i don’t think i can wait for the next update, i’m dying… same for 28 days; you said there would be one before christmas! now i’m just being a pestering fool. sorry, but these are addicting stories. get the girls back together. thank you!
I don’t have alot to say except this was a freaking awesome post and that i am lloooking 4ward to your next update. Wooott! I love you.
yeah! right on arthur! i don’t think i can wait for the next update, i’m dying… same for 28 days; you said there would be one before christmas! now i’m just being a pestering fool. sorry, but these are addicting stories. get the girls back together. thank you!
I don’t have alot to say except this was a freaking awesome post and that i am lloooking 4ward to your next update. Wooott! I love you.
omg it’s the penultimate chapter!! and the next chap will be the last!!! arghhh i dunno if i can take it when this heartwarming and incredibly touching story ends. i have no author to stalk already. unless you start updating 28 days regularly. haha. but i mucho lug this story and you of course. and i cant wait for the beautiful ending. :D LUG LUG YOU AT!!!
omg it’s the penultimate chapter!! and the next chap will be the last!!! arghhh i dunno if i can take it when this heartwarming and incredibly touching story ends. i have no author to stalk already. unless you start updating 28 days regularly. haha. but i mucho lug this story and you of course. and i cant wait for the beautiful ending. :D LUG LUG YOU AT!!!
oh my freaking god!!!! oh man…wow. gray was so great to her and he and her father knew!!! WOAH. didn’t see that one coming! i seriously just want to thank you for writing this! i love it soooooo much! but please please please please fix them! make them spashley once again…and soon!
oh my freaking god!!!! oh man…wow. gray was so great to her and he and her father knew!!! WOAH. didn’t see that one coming! i seriously just want to thank you for writing this! i love it soooooo much! but please please please please fix them! make them spashley once again…and soon!
Great update. It’s funny how the one’s around you seem to know so much about you without you even saying a word (unless they are blind like Paula LOL). I loved how Gray and Arthur already knew from just seeing Spencer and her happiness before… Now get Ashley in there and make it better. Go Spencer Go! LOL… Loved it. You are an excellent writer (not that you haven’t heard that before), but I just wanted to say it again!
Great update. It’s funny how the one’s around you seem to know so much about you without you even saying a word (unless they are blind like Paula LOL). I loved how Gray and Arthur already knew from just seeing Spencer and her happiness before… Now get Ashley in there and make it better. Go Spencer Go! LOL… Loved it. You are an excellent writer (not that you haven’t heard that before), but I just wanted to say it again!
I can’t believe Ashley just left without talking to Spencer or atleast saying bye to Elly. Spencer shouldn’t run after her. Did Ashley think it would be ok to date another woman, then come home to Spencer and the kid’s?!
I can’t believe Ashley just left without talking to Spencer or atleast saying bye to Elly. Spencer shouldn’t run after her. Did Ashley think it would be ok to date another woman, then come home to Spencer and the kid’s?!