I just wish it were easier…I wish everyone had a happy ending, I wish love was simple, but it isn’t…in fact it’s far from it. Spencer’s my life…

About a year ago she left for Ohio for the summer. Right before she left I told her that I was the one for her, and I told her not to leave. She left anyways, and then when she came back she didn’t want to be in a relationship…at least not an exclusive one. One night she actually thought about there being an “us” again, but I ignored it…I was sick of the put downs, I was sick of seeing her with other people…but then I realized I needed to tell her I love her, and I was the one for her. When I went to her house I opened the door to her bedroom and she woke up looking at me I thought she was alone…I remember her exact words… my name “Ashley”. She knew what I was going to tell her…she knew why I was there, then Nicole woke up from behind her, my heart dropped…I died…

About 2 days later she came to my house, I didn’t want to see her, that was a fact…and she handed me a box with 82 letters in it. She said that’s how she spent her summer…wanting me. That night our hearts caught up with us, we told each other we were in love with each other and it seemed like the happy ending.

Then college came, and I moved out here. She’s in California and last night I was stupid and she left me…

After she left I just sat and cried on my bed, my bed that still smelled like her. I didn’t know what to do, she was already in the air, probably already in California. I called up my sister…

Kyla: hello?

Ashley: hey Ky…

Kyla: Ashley! Are you ok?! What’s wrong?!

I was crying

Ashley: uh Spencer left this morning…we had a big fight…she uh, it’s over ky…

Kyla: Ashley…

Ashley: I can’t believe it’s over…

Kyla: shhh you don’t know that…

Ashley: she left her ring here…

Kyla: I’m sorry ash…why don’t you come home for the rest of the weekend…you can stay in the house…I wont tell anyone you’re home…