Today has been great.  GREAT you would think I could think of a better word.  It started off awful.  I had been driving myself crazy with these feelings I was having for Spencer and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t shake them.  I even called up an old friend who provided certain "services" I knew about.

I had seen Katie once before she was nice enough.  She was undeniably beautiful and more than anything she looked alot like Spencer.  I could try and lie and say that I just wanted to fuck someone but I know the truth I wanted to be with Spencer and since I thought that would never happen I had to improvise.

When she got to my room I climbed off my bed and right away I pushed her up against the wall.  She knew the game she was their for whatever I needed.  Usually my "needs" can be a little more physical I like to be in control but today I wanted to escape reality.  

I kissed her softly which I think suprised her.  I ran my hands over her body but only enough to excite her.  I ran my fingers through her hair and then I moved her to my bed but I never let my lips leave hers.  I slowly undressed her and she pulled my shirt and skirt off, after spending time on each of her nipples I knew she was more than ready for whatever I was going to do to her.  I slid my fingers through her folds and felt how wet she was.  It turned me on more thinking that I could do this to her just by kissing her.

I moved down her body and after kissing a trail down her stomach I stopped right at her center.  I slowly stuck my tongue into her and she took a deep breath as she spread her legs wider for me.  I pushed 2 fingers inside her and sucked hard at her clit.

“Ohh fuck.…Ashley.”

She said and I loved that she said my name.  I would love it if Spencer said my name and this excited me more I pushed another finger inside of her and pushed in and out of her with as much force as I could. She was moaning and I knew she was close.  I moved my thumb to her clit and moved up her body to kiss her.  I wanted so bad for this to be Spencer so I closed my eyes and imagine it was Spencer’s walls closing in on my fingers, her lips I was kissing.  I didn’t even have time to finish the image because she moved on top of me and started riding my fingers.  I felt her fingers enter me and I gasped I knew I was soaked and I closed my eyes and pretended that Spencer was making love to me.  Even though I knew no one would ever "make love" to me.  Yes they would fuck me for my body but I had done so much I knew I wasn’t "love" material.