My heart cries out for two different people. My best friend, a girl, and the person I’m supposed to be in love with. They both beg for my attention.

My problem is simple; I don’t love the one I’m supposed to. I love my best friend and all she would have to do is ask me to stay. That one simple word would be it for me. It’s all I want to hear from her. Stay. She never does. The heartbreak in her eyes every time I leave kills me, but I’m supposed to be with him. We have history together. Aiden and I make sense, so why does my heart cry out for her? Why can’t she ask me to stay?

I’ve hinted all the time that I want her. Not him. He doesn’t give me what I need. What I want. She gives me everything without even realizing it. She is my other half. My life. My reason for breathing. I don’t want to live this way. Sharing my time with the one I love and the one I’m supposed to love. What do I have to do to make her see that I want her to make me stay? I’m so tired of being lonely. My happiness is right in front of me, and I can’t grasp it just quite yet.

Staring at the clock on the wall, I’ve been praying that she’ll call me. I’ve been waiting for that one word from her. Stay. She hasn’t called, but he has. He’s here right now. Looking at me with lust and want in his eyes. Her eyes always show me love and understanding. I wish she were here right now. I know what he’s wanting from me. He’s been trying for weeks, but I haven’t let him because I’m hers. All she has to do is ask me to stay, and I’ll be hers.

His body covers mine. The kiss is rough and unwanted. Just like his roaming hands. I don’t want this. Willing my phone to ring, I want it to be her.

It doesn’t ring.

She knows I’m with him. Even if I want to be with her instead of him, I have to. It is what’s expected of me. He says he loves me but his actions say different. He’s not gentle or caring in his touch. She would be though. I know it.