6 weeks, can you believe it? Honestly, I can’t. I couldn’t see myself being faithful to anyone for that long. It doesn’t seem like that long but to me its years. I have never been and never thought I would be with someone this long. Its amazing how one person can change so much about how you are or thought you were. She has been the person I look to for comfort, for happiness, for everything. That is why tonight has to mean something to me and to her. I know it’s our 6 week anniversary, who celebrates that… right? Wrong, because I do. All because it means something to her and she means something to me. Planning? What on earth am I going to do? I have never done this before. This is all so new to me. I have never cared this much about someone. This has to be and will be special. Even, if we don’t last, I still want her to remember this as something so wonderful. I want this to be perfect.

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I couldn’t be more nervous. Here I am standing outside her door holding her favorite flowers. I am trying to keep my breathing under control, trying to keep my heart from beating out of chest, trying to settle the butterflies down in my stomach. All these feeling I hold are all new to me. I don’t know how to control it all. The jumpy heart, the butterflies, the fast breathing, the wondering mind, the shakiness, the nervousness, the uncontrollable urge to have everything perfect for her. Everything I am feeling right now is so new. I bring my hand slowly up to the door then drop it back down to my sides. Everything came times 5, when I was about to knock. I slowly brought my courage back up along with my hand. I knocked softly. So softly that barely I could even hear it. I decided to go with the doorbell. I pushed it and waited. I heard the doorknob starting to turn and that made my feeling multiply even more. The door opened slowly too slowly for my liking. This night may kill me but it’s still going to be the best ever. She opened the door all the way and looked up at me, smiling. The moment my eyes looked at her, my jaw dropped. She has always been beautiful in whatever she wore but tonight there’s a whole new meaning to the word. Gosh, I’ve never seen anyone this gorgeous and beautiful before. She has on jeans and a blue spaghetti strap shirt with white lace at the bottom. Simple? Yes. There was something about tonight though, that just made her seem more…… HOT. I smiled back and handed her the flowers.