Two weeks later Spencer felt even worse, she went to school and watched Ashley and Aiden have a good time. Got ignored during classes she shared with them and broke up with Wes, she couldn’t stand being around him and his jock buddies. At home was even worse, at least in what ever reality she’d come from her parents were working thru their problems. Here it was the complete opposite, her parents fought and screamed at each other. Blaming each other or Spencer for their declining family, she sat on the top stairs listening trying to understand what was happening around her. Her whole body felt numb.

“Spencer come on were going to be late!” Clay yelled up the stairs not wanting to miss the first Monday classes.

Sighing she glanced at herself in the mirror one last time, her hair was pulled back into a pony tail and she wore no make up. She saw no point in trying to look good, no point in doing any thing any more. Her heart and mind simply gave up at the same time. Slipping on one of Ashley’s hoodies that was left hidden in her closet over her t shirt, her eyes wondered down her body to the slightly loose jeans and tennis shoes. Her mother kept bugging her to eat but just the mention of food made her sick to her stomach so she eat little as possible causing her jeans to become loose.

“Spencer!” Grabbing her back pack she rushed down stairs and out the door before her dad could say anything, her mother working the early shift wasn’t home so no worry there.

Glen drove the car to the school parking lot, they were at least thirty minutes early so students milled around the quad waiting for the bell to ring. Gripping the strap of her back pack she exited the car, her eyes scanning the building as her legs moved forward. Blue eyes fell upon Ashley and some new girl talking at one of the table, the brunette’s eyes lit up and a small laugh escaped her lips as the other girl made a joke.

Spencer’s mouth went dry, her body ached and burned and she knew right then that she was jealous. Ashley glanced up as if feeling eyes on her and locked gazes with Spencer, she could see the girl clearly even from afar. Her eyes were hollow and she seemed skinner and paler than the last time she’d seen her.