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[b] Part One B [/b]

[u][b] Take A Bow [/b][/u]

[i]She closed her eyes, tired and exhausted…[/i]

The young girl’s work catching up with her and doubt overcoming her body like she was being crushed by gigantic waves of self doubt.

Was pursuing her dream the right thing to do?

Was abandoning her daughter with someone she didn’t know, didn’t care to know?

Ashley had immediately came into her room and slowly stripped off the clothes from her body. She had been traveling in those clothes since two nights ago when she had left Dublin. She had many unknown things and many known things on those clothes; her daughter’s tears and snot from her tantrum, the spilt cup of strawberry milk that she had tried to give the little girl before the little girl pushed it away onto her. It disgusted her how much children can be so careless and messy. Then again, it disgusted her how many thoughts like her previous one could come into her head. She was becoming someone she didn’t want to become.

Ashley had climbed into her California king size bed and under the mocha colored down comforter. She curled underneath and put pillows on both sides of her, creating the false feeling of the warmth from someone’s body. She had blindly reached for the little button on the side table and quickly closed the windows off to the Los Angeles skyline. The last thing she needed was to be woken up by the bright, morning, Californian sun.

She did not know how exactly she had come to be how she was now.

It seems that after sophomore year everything went down hill.

At the beginning of that year she had began to date the resident basketball stare Aiden Dennison. The tall, dark, and handsome boy was her tether to the world, without him she would have flown away and got lost in the chaos. He made her feel wanted, needed, loved. He gave her the attention that she had needed, that she had failed to get her whole life. He helped fill a void in her body. Ashley couldn’t truly and still can’t say that she was ever [i]in love[/i] with Aiden, but she can honestly say that she loved him.