"Just know that I love you and I’ll come back for you when I’m ready, Ashley."
   "But Spence, where are you going?"
   "Just…just tell me that you love me and thta you’ll wait for you."
   "I’ll always wait for you. I love you so much spencer Carlin. Goodbye, I guess."
   "No, not goodbye. Goodbye is forever. It’s see ya later because I’m going to come back. I’ll see you later Ashley."

And with that she disconnected her line along with my heart.

She’s driving away
from me as we speak

I fell to the ground and into my puddle of tears. I don’t understand. I would’ve kept our relationship as a secret. I told her I would. I would do anything for that girl. And she’s leaving me

My letter in her hands
Her tongue in her cheek
She’s listening to morrisey
All the while living like James Dean

I stand back up and wipe away my tears. However it does no good because they continuously fall. I walk into my room. It takes all I have not to grab the bottle of whiskey in the hellway. This time I’m going to stay clean. For her. I grab my guitar out of the closet and  begin strumming.

She’s driving away
Before it gets tough
Leaving me with my guitar
I’ll leave you with this song.

I strum away my heartache, at least for a few hours. My fingers are bleeding and their tips are numb. But I don’t care. I have to cover my heartache. I have to push my feelings aside until we meet again. Until she is finally ready

Two verses and a chorus
Maybe if I play it loud
You will sing laong
Sometimes you gotta scream and just go

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Here I am, driving away from her. Driving away from the one I love. But, it’s better for the both of us. She deserves someone who can be proud o f being in a relationship with her. Some who wouldn’t be scared of what others think about it. Right now, I’m not that someone. But…someday I will be. And I’ll go back to her

Go, roll the windows down
With this song on the radio just singing aloud
Send you a postcard just as soon as I get there
Drive, drive, drive…me to anywhere