Spencer lay in the bed snuggled close to Ashley, who held her tight almost too tight as it was slightly hard to breathe but not unbearable so she stayed unmoving staring up at the ceiling reliving the memory of what had happened between them hours earlier. It was more than she dreamt of, more than the fantasies that played in her mind day in and day out. But something felt wrong, so dreadful and distant now, Spencer didn’t regret the lesson turning real or allowing the brunette to hold her after, in fact the blonde liked that even more. However evil thoughts kept popping up and she didn’t know why…

Blue eyes scanned the body before her, they were both lying down facing each other, so close Spencer felt Ashley’s soft breathing blowing across her lips causing the pit of her stomach to drop, making her want to lean in and kiss those precious lips dipped in strawberry lip gloss but that would wake her up and Spencer didn’t want that.

I wonder what’s underneath that soft flesh, she wondered gently running her hand up and down the side of Ashley’s arm, I bet the hot blood would mix nicely with her tanned skin….or the silver of a knife slicing her open, that would open her up to me no more hiding, nothing to lose as everything would be out and explored.

Those thoughts made her hands shake, she really wanted to get up and grab a knife, watch the glistening metal dance on the surface pushing easily so only small drops of red bubbled up, gulping she knew she had to get away from Ashley right now, the depression crowding her brain once again, something that had left when the brunette came back into her life. Quickly she unwrapped her self, leaving the room and making her way downstairs trying not to wake up her dad and Uncle Raife. Outside the wind was chilly, causing goose bumps to rise on her pale skin making her wish she would have slipped something on over her boxers and wife beater but than again welcoming the coolness compared to the intense heat of Ashley’s fingers and body.

The blonde sat down on the porch staring up into the sky wishing that what ever started these thoughts would disappear, shut off and leave her alone, laying down on her back she felt the freezing wood under her barely there shirt, stars twinkling down on her, showing she wasn’t alone, she forced her thoughts to stay away from the dangerous ones and over to the romantic ones of earlier.