Ch. 7

                We stayed that way for a while, kissing each other deeply and passionately. Ashley was sitting down but I was on my knees, grabbing the side of her head and bringing her face closer to mine. Our tongues reacquainted themselves with one another once again, dancing with one another, relishing the taste of one another’s warm, wet mouths. Ashley and I both groaned into the kiss, since it had been so long since both shared something like this. It was obvious that we both missed one another. I felt a smile creep up my face as we made out with one another. I never even thought about how wrong this was that I was cheating on my girlfriend with my ex, who was also in a relationship. It just felt so right… even though it was so WRONG at the same time. I loved how Ashley’s mouth always tasted like ripe peaches. It was as if I was addicted to the taste of her mouth and lips, and had gone through withdrawal, and now I was drowning in the taste of them again now that I finally was kissing her. I felt a surge of pleasure rip through my body as she placed her hands under my jacket and shirt, making contact with my bare waist. The feel of her warm hands on my skin made my heart beat like a jackhammer inside my chest. I lost all ability to think rationally.

Finally we broke apart from one another to get air. “It feels like everything’s perfect again, doesn’t it?” Once I caught my breath again, I regained my senses as well. “No.” She looked at me, surprised at my response. “We shouldn’t have done that.” I said, panicking. “Why not? Spencer, I love you. I know I made the wrong choice before, but I want you back.”  “Ashley, just because we made out and you say that you love me does NOT change anything!” “You broke my heart, Ash.” I looked right into her eyes so she could see all the pain I that she had caused me. “I want you and only you!” she pled. “You don’t know what you want.” I said, shaking my head sadly. That was the truth. Ashley was making a mess out of Aiden’s feelings and my feelings for her. She didn’t know what she wanted then, and I doubted she knew what she wanted now. “I’ll break up with Aiden, Spencer. I just want to be with you again.” She leaned in closer to me. “I’m already in another relationship, Ashley.” I said, taking a step backwards from her. “You shouldn’t have chosen Aiden over me in the first place, if I’m truly what you want. We can’t do this. If we can’t be just friends, Ash, we can’t be in each others’ lives, it’d screw everything up all over again.” She stepped towards me again and put her arms around me, and placed her forehead against mine. “I don’t want you out of my life.” She breathed. “Please. Let’s go over to my house, it’s more private there.” “Fine.” I agreed, not wanting Carmen or Chelsea, or whoever to suddenly appear at the door the way Ashley had.