Chapter 6- No Saving Me
Ashley’s Point of View

Dear Me, myself and Ashley, I am So Going to Hell. No, Seriously, I totally am.
Out of all my sins, the one I’m currently consumed with feels so fuckin’ good.
The Sin? Spencer Carlin. Surprised? Well, of course not… My mind and heart are indulging themselves greedily with this girl. Never, I mean, Never have I thought that I could feel so strongly about someone again after dating that freakshow Aiden. With this beautiful blue eyed, straight haired Blond, I feel incredibly secure of myself as a person. She has whipped me into becoming a more considerate, honest and compassionate person. I don’t know whether it’s because I’m intimidated by her outgoing, adorable, and articulate personality or if it’s just a mutual feeling of lust. I’m pretty sure it’s option A because from what I’ve observed and learned by the actions and words of Spencer, she’s a virgin to everything horrible in this life. She hasn’t experienced what I experienced, besides the divorce of her parents, but still, she has never seen what I’ve seen and it scares me. I’m scared that I might expose her to the dark side of the world…

"Ash…" a soft voice whimpers in my ear. I snap back to reality and there’s a face of the innocent angel I’ve been obsessing about. We were both stripped naked of our clothes and we held each other in a warm embrace. Her deep blue eyes sparkled in the moonlight and it hypnotized me. Spencer’s innocence was radiating again and I wanted to pull away because I didn’t want the innocence to fade. Suddenly, I feel her shaking hand slowly graze over my chest. The feel of her fingertips tickle me and I offer her a small smile before I pull her body closer to mine. She nuzzles her head underneath my chin, as we continue standing in the middle of her bedroom. Almost immediately, the feeling of wanting to physically be inside her disappeared. All I really wanted to do was just touch her and hold her like this forever. It was so comforting and I felt like an important person being this close to Spencer. It was even better in the nude because everything that needed to be discovered about her was stripped away and everything that I am was fully exposed to her as well. I’m not sure if she can read people like I can but her facial expression tells me that she is comfortable being this way with me. I don’t know how I can sense it but I adored this feeling. One minute I’m horny watching this girl masturbate and the next, I’m calm and all I want to do now is just cuddle her in my arms. "Spence, I’m afraid…" I quietly admit to her, feeling her head pull away from my shoulder. She looks up at me with this confused look on her face. "Why are you afraid? I think I’m the one who should be afraid because I’m feeling something I’ve never felt before but for some reason, I’m not afraid. I’m not afraid because I’m in your arms…" She responds with a gentle tone in her voice. Her honesty only made me fall more in love with her inner beauty. I lift my hand to caress her smooth cheeks and I can see that she is blushing heavily. If it were possible, my chest would tear itself open to show her the smile inside my heart. I don’t know how to react to that statement but I react anyways. Our eyes slowly shut together and our lips, like magnets, attract each other immediately and we kiss passionately. Her hungry tongue licks my bottom lip as it begs for entry inside my mouth. I tease her as I bite her lips carefully so that her tongue can’t find a way inside my hot mouth. She moans in frustration and it turns me on so bad. But I have self-control. I don’t want this to be her first time, I just want this to be the first time we explore each other first before anything else. I want her to know that I want to know every exact detail relating to her and her fragile body. As our lips are clashing, her tongue still trying to find entry, I suddenly push her to the nearest wall. We both gasp as our wet regions pulse together as if they were one. I could feel her wetness dripping onto my thigh and I do not mind, this is just so amazingly hot. Spencer has this intoxicated look in her eyes and it drives me insane with pleasure. I finally kiss her again and this time, her tongue forcefully parts my lips as it enters my mouth, massaging my tongue the instant they come in contact. I almost gag when she starts deepening the kiss, but I regain my strength and push my tongue against hers. We both moan in unison, and my hands begin to caress her breasts. She pulls away from our hot kiss and watches me with the same glazed eyes I saw before while we were in the bathroom together. My fingers begin to play with her hardened nipples and she arches her back to experience the feeling of my hands even more. Without hesitation, Spencer grabs both of my shoulders and jumps, only to wrap her legs around my waist. "Spencer, oh my god…that was sexy…" I whisper huskily. She grins and wraps her arms around my neck as we both kiss each other deeply again. I honestly can’t explain how emotional I am right now. I want to be gentle and caring because I do care about how she feels about this whole situation and apparently, she approves. I love it! My knees begin to wobble so now it’s time for the bed I assume. "Ashley, I want you so bad right now, I can’t explain why but I just do!" Spencer whines, as I place her gently on top of her bed. She lies on her back patiently and I slowly crawl on top of her. Instead of flooding her mouth with my tongue, I simply nuzzle my head under her chin this time. She looks into my eyes and she can tell that I didn’t want to take advantage of her mood. "Spencer, I just want to cuddle with you. As much as you turn me on, I want to be careful with you. I want to be sure you want this." I tell her truthfully. I wrap my arm across her chest and I shift so I’m on my hips and against Spencer’s body. She sighs happily, though I do sense a bit of sexual frustration. "I’m really glad you care about my feelings about this. I know we just met not too long ago but whenever I’m around you, I feel eternally free. I’m also attracted to your dominant personality and…physcial appearance." She admits shyly. I lightly laugh along with her while I try to maintain my sexual urges. "I try not to come off as strong sometimes but I just want to know every detail about you. You’re just so different and respectable…I don’t know what I’m feeling but I’m honestly happy I met you." I stated. I felt her lips press against my forehead and this time it is me who blushes. Her smile makes me want to kiss her but I know that if I kiss her again, I would take her all the way. "Ashley Davies, I think you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’m opening up to a whole new me and it feels amazing. No one has ever created this effect on me."