It’s finally junior year thank freaking god. One more year and I’m finally free! You’d think being the daughter of legendary rocker raife Davies, I’d be happy or somewhat happy… right? I mean I’m freaking hot, I have girls falling at my feet, I’m loaded, and kinda famous… so then why aren’t I happy? Maybe it has something to do with my dad never being home or my mom being a whore, or maybe it’s the fact that the one person I would give the world too won’t take it.

Yayayaya… we gave it a try. A really, good try. It lasted a good six months. I’d have to say they were the best six months ever. I bet you’re wondering why it didn’t last. I couldn’t tell you even if I wanted to. It was freshman year, we’ve known each other since we were in like fourth grade. We’re best friends. I know it’s weird how even after we broke up we went back to how things were. Anyways, we were perfect, almost too perfect. I think somewhere along the way we just got scared. We were only freshmen. We weren’t supposed to feel this way. So attached so together. Were we in love? Who really knows? But it sure as hell felt a lot like love. One thing is for sure though. If I could go back to the day.. I wouldn’t have let her walk out my door.

So here I am now, laying on my bed listening to my iPod and thinking. I’m waiting for Spencer to get here. Oh yea, if I forgot to mention that the girl I’d give the world to is Spencer. Spencer Marie carlin. Lets see Spencer, beautiful blue eyes, long blonde hair, sweet and innocent… when she wants to be heheh.  And beautiful, it’s natural beauty. Not 30 pounds of make up “beauty”. The weirdest thing is that the girls I normally sleep with look nothing like her or act like her. I don’t do relationships anymore, I always find myself comparing everyone to Spencer. She’s had a few here and there.. of course all jealous of me ! Spencer’s  here. Yay! Ha-ha

I opened the door to find Spencer with her back towards the door