From A Whisper To A Scream…

Spencer’s POV:

“will you get out of bed…seriously…” Lauren said coming into my room

“you’ve been coming in here every fifteen minutes…do you think I’ve changed my mind about getting out of bed? No.” I told her simply

“Spencer staying in bed isn’t going to make things all better…” she told me

“I know that…I just need something to happen, I need a sign that things are going to change. Because things right now suck…so in the absence of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like I’m going to die today…” I explained to her

“so that’s it? You’re just going to lie in bed…wallowing in self pitty?” she asked me leaning against my door frame

“yes…then in about ten minutes I’ll go get chocolate ice cream…” I said sarcastically

“I have an idea…” she told me “…why don’t you get out of bed, go running or something…and stop being the sensitive weak girl that hides her feelings by being sarcastic.” She told me “how about that one?” she said before walking down the hall way

How could Ashley…she is the one for me…I know it, and I wish she wasn’t, because she’s such a smart ass sometimes, and I mean I slept with her when she was married! There was a million reasons why I shouldn’t be with her, but there’s a million and one why I should…as for now…I can’t stand being around her…or even looking at her

I went downstairs and Aiden, Lauren and Michelle were standing in the kitchen

“hey! She’s alive…” they said

“I need to get drunk…” I said walking towards the door then I didn’t hear them following me “…well at least one of you has to come, because I am not driving a car back home after tonight…” I told them

“alright…lets go get drunk!” Aiden said grabbing his car keys

We went to the bar and I walked in as a woman on a mission…I went and sat at the bar

“joe! Drinks! Lots and lots of drinks…” I told him and he put out a shot glass for me and about after five Lauren stopped me