Ashleys POV

It has been about a week since Spencers first nightmare. I say first because she has been having them almost every night since. I feel horrible and I haven’t been sleeping. I want her to be ok, I just don’t know what to do or how to help her. It’s the same every night once we finally do go to sleep. She starts tossing and turning. Some nights she screams others she just trashes around and moans. It kills me to see her go through this and not know how to stop it. Eventually ill be able to wake her up. She will just lay in my arms and cry. And I lay down and try to soothe her back to sleep.

Spencers POV

Its been the same for days now. I keep having these horrible nightmares. Nightmares about either ash leaving me for Jake or him attacking me again. Sometimes both. I hate it. The dreams are so vivid so real. Ash isn’t sleeping anymore since she is awake all night trying to comfort me and be there for me.  I can tell she is exhauster she tries to hide it from me but I know she is. She has been amazing well she was always amazing but she well I don’t know how to describe it. She has been there unconditionally through this whole thing. By my side everynight and she hasn’t complained at all. I wish I knew how to stop all of this so me and ash can get back to normal. And we can both get some sleep.

“Hey baby.” I say as I walk through the door.Im exhausted from work the kids were so energetic today. I look at ash she looks so tired.

“Hey hunny.” She yawns. She gets up and walks over to me giving me a hug and a kiss. I look at her lovingly. We need to talk.

“Hey babe, um I want well need to talk to you about something.” I have no idea to approach this topic. And Im kind of nervous about it.

  “Yea hun?” she looks nervous.

“Um, well I I think I need to go talk to like a therapist or something. I well you know I haven’t  been sleeping and neither have you. I cant take these nightmares anymore. And maybe this will help.” I say in a rush and quickly bite my lip. I lower my head embarrassed for some reason. And Ashley is right there. She pulls me in for a loving hug. And then looks back at me.