3 months…

Finally! Friday night…Spencer and I were watching television in my living room and she was curled up in a ball on the huge chair we had, and I was kind of half laying on the couch…

“Blaire! Don’t…no! do not…oh my god she just kissed him! She’s kissing him!” Spencer yelled at the television and I got a dream flash back quickly about the whole Blaire thing and realized that was kind of like the things between Aiden and I…

“get a little more into it…” I told her laughing

“this is my favorite show…”

“gossip girl would be your favorite show…”

“but I hate that girl at the end, like her voice…it’s so annoying…and if you think about it, this show is actually really creepy…”

“uh no shit.” I told her “…you know, you can come over here…” I said

“ash I thought we were just hanging out…”

“we are…but I told you, we could cuddle” I told her then she smiled “…please” I asked and she got up coming over and sitting between my legs extending hers along the couch and she leaned back into me and I had my arms around her stomach

“I like this…” she told me “…despite who wrong it is, I like this…”

“me too…” I told her and she looked up at me

“is kissing ok too?” she asked

“I think it should be…” I said then I leaned down and brought my lips to her

“you know what?” she asked breaking the kiss

“what?”

“I don’t know what’s more weird…the fact I’m sleeping with my best friend, or it feels like you’ve done all this before…” she said and I laughed at her

“I haven’t done it before…and it could be a little weird if you think about it like that…”

“right…so how’s Aiden?” she asked me

“can we not talk about him…” I told her

“why not? He is your boyfriend…”

“look Spencer…for tonight…can we please just be together? For me…” I asked her and she smiled but it quickly changed as she stood up

“for you? For you Ashley?! What about for me?! This has all fucking been about you…this is what I can’t stand, it’s like…it’s like unless you’re chasing me, you can’t like me…if you have me, then it’s about you and only you, but when you’re chasing me, trying to get my attention for you like this…then it’s all about me. You were in a car accident, and I almost lost my best friend, but you’re awake now…so just…get over yourself…” she said then she grabbed her coat and started walking out the front door and I sat there thinking then everything she said just clicked, so I got up and ran out the door standing on my porch