Everything is so not okay.  It’s been three days since Spencer and I argued and we’ve barely said more than five sentences to each other.  We’re still together everyday.  We sit at the same table at lunch, she has cheerleading practice while I have track, and we ride home together.  We just don’t really talk.  Then again, their is the boyfriend factor.  It  turns out this Chris kid isn’t so bad.  He doesn’t stalk Spence or anything.  He just drops in and tells a few not so bad jokes, plays around with her hair, and then kisses her on the cheek.  It’s adorable and it kind of makes me want to gag.

He even tries to pull me into conversation occasionally, but my monosyllabic answers and occasional grunts have pretty much killed his resolve.  He probably thinks I’m the best friend from hell.  And I don’t care.  I don’t like him.  And I don’t like the fact that he has the one thing in the world that I have ever cared about more than myself.

On the fifth day of the hetero-relationship from hell, I’m sitting at lunch, staring at my burger, when Madison walks up.  

“Hey Ash,” she says quietly, and I offer a small smile.

“Hey Maddy.  What’s been up?”

“Nothing really,” she says slowly and then she stops to take a look at me.  “Wow you’re hair looks great today.”

I blush unexpectedly and then look away.  “Thanks.  Thanks alot.”

“So where’s Spencer?  Aren’t you guys like attached at the lip-I mean HIP! Hip!”  Madison’s eyes bulge out of her head after saying this and I can’t help but notice how shockingly green they are.  “God Ashley I so did not mean to say that,” she says putting a hand on my arm and I just nod.  She meant to say it and I don’t care.  I don’t care if she knows.  Maddy knows everything.

I’ve known her much longer than I’ve known Spencer, since second grade in fact.  We’ve always hung in the same circles, but I guess it’s safe to say that we never really hit it off.  She’s a great person though.  The best.  “It’s okay Maddy.  I don’t care.”

“What?  You don’t care?”

“No, Spencer doesn’t like me that way.  In fact, she’s probably off sucking face with that Chris guy anyway.”