The world suddenly became much lighter through her closed eyes and she couldn’t help but open them. 

‘Fuck waking up to bright light.’ 

She quickly closed her eyes tightly and pulled the blankets over her head.  It wasn’t completely dark, but it was better than the blinding light.  Spencer could smell him on the blankets. 

‘Dammit.  I have to stop thinking about her.  This really is no good, especially when I wake up in Jake’s bed.  Spencer, stop being so fucked up.  Well, at least you didn’t wake up to a smiling Jake, while thinking about Ashley.  Thank god he works so early in the morning.’ 

She slowly retreated from the depths of the blankets; once she sat up she threw them off of her, swung her legs off the side of the bed, stood up quickly and reached her arms high over her head, stretching.  She glanced at the clock, 8:38am.  Spencer began walking around Jake’s apartment gathering her things.

‘I’m going to have to hustle to be at work on time.  And I still have to go home.  Shit.  I can’t believe I fell asleep here again.’

She strolled into work 5 minutes late.  Caroline was putting some files away in the filing cabinet and simply smiled at Spencer.  Spencer returned the smile and walked straight into her office.  She knew she had clients this morning and needed to gather some things before the first showed up. 

‘I wonder if any of my clients can tell how messed up in the head I’ve been lately.  Someone might need to shrink the shrink.’   She giggled to herself and dove into her work. 

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A few hours and two clients later, Spencer had some free time.  She still had one more client for the day, but they weren’t scheduled for another hour.  She contemplated calling Kelly, but decided against it.  So, once again, she was left with her own thoughts.

‘Why are you thinking about Ashley?  Honestly?  You had no problem being with Jake the past 4 years, until now.  Hell, you were even excited about getting married!  Why not anymore?  What the hell is wrong with you!’