Ashley’s POV

I’ve managed to avoid Spencer for two weeks now. It’s getting really hard to not talk to her, and Mrs. C keeps staring at me as if she’s trying to figure something out.

What am I gonna do about her? I want to be with her, but I’m so scared she’ll just throw me away again when it gets rough. To make matters worse Aiden has been all over Spencer. My Spencer. She seems to hate his advances as well.

Madison and Kyla keep telling me I need to talk to her. Make things right but I keep refusing. She hurt me really bad, and I’m not one to forgive and forget easily either.

I have become and insomniac since she broke up with me. I dream of her every night and it kills me, so I don’t sleep. I look awful; well that is what Mads keeps telling me. Spencer doesn’t look much better though. I’m sure she hasn’t been sleeping either.

I need her as much as she needs me. What am I gonna do?

Spencer’s POV

Because I dream of her every night, I haven’t slept in weeks. Death would be the only way to describe the way I look right now. The dark circles do nothing for my appearance. What am I gonna do about her? I want her back but I’m pretty sure she will never give me another chance. I don’t blame her though I did just push her away as soon as it got hard.

My mom and Glen have been trying to help me figure out a way to get her back. I would have never thought in a million years that my mom would be okay with me being gay. I was so wrong about her. She’s a great person. I love her so much. She has been staring at Ashley a lot though, I’m pretty sure she freaking her out with it. I think she’s just trying to figure her out or maybe trying to see what I see when I look at my Ashley. Damn it! She’s not my Ashley anymore. I gave her up. I’m so fucking stupid.

Glen claims that he has came up with a foolproof plan to get my girl back. I’m not to sure about it since most of his plans backfire leaving someone covered in shit. Unless Aiden is the one covered in it ‘because that would be great. He has been flirting or stalking, depending on how you see it, for the last several weeks. Ash’s calf idea is sounding a lot better to me now.