“How’d you find me?” she nervously chewed on her bottom lip purposely keeping her eyes from me, trying to shrink into the ground.

“Jacob but does that really matter?” I asked angrily stalking toward her she started stepping back muttering an apology that I quickly cut her off from, “How could you just disappear like that huh?” I screamed, “Leaving me all alone with those people who I don’t know. You think that just because you’re sick you can do what you want when you want with out regard to others feelings?”

“Ash look I….” her voice trailed off as a few tears flow down her cheeks.

“You what Spencer huh, I want to be there for you but you won’t let me, why?” I pushed her slightly making her stumble back, “I want to kiss you and hold you and make all your fears go away,” my hands find her shoulders and push yet again she’s trying to stop my hands but I’m in a fury and keeping pushing her over and over again. Yelling and screaming out her while she just held her head down in shame or something I’m not sure, “Tell me where you were damn it!” I screamed in her face pushing once more. She fell across a grave stone, her body twisting in an attempt to shield her self from the fall, my heart stopped for a second, the world slowed down as I watched the panic spread across her face. Soon her body crashed to the ground, blood seeped from a cut on her hand, dripping down her pale arm, “Oh God Spence I’m so sorry,” leaning down I tried to take her hand in mine but she pulled back.

She chuckles quietly staring at the blood, “So this is what they meant by love hurts huh?” it was a sad laugh as the tears subsided.

“Where were you?” I asked again now kneeling in front of her, sitting between her legs, she had no where to go because I was close enough to grab her if she tried. Blue eyes dropped to the ground again unable to meet my gaze, “Spence….where were you?”

“Ash I…I can’t do this with you,” she pushed me back a bit and stood up I was there with her in seconds.