3 months Teaser 3

Three days…three days on my porch were waiting for Spencer to forgive me. Now if that’s not commitment then I don’t know what is…

“Like I’m mourning the single most important thing in my life…us” she said through the door as I sat in the pouring rain

“but we’re not dead Spence…we’re not dead baby we just need to start over…please if you could just love me enough and find it in your heart to let us go back to how things were…” I begged her as I was soaked in the rain “Spencer? Spencer?” I questioned as I didn’t hear her on the other side anymore.

So I turned back around and pulled the cold wet blanket closer to me leaning against the door, then it opened and I fell back into my house then shot up walking inside and Spencer was slowly walking into the kitchen, and I said nothing because I still felt I didn’t have the right to…she got two cups and grabbed two packets of hot chocolate out of the cupboard then I just leaned against the counter looking at her then she quietly spoke through her tears

“you should change before you get sick…” she said then I just turned around and went up stairs to change and put on sweat pants and a thermal t-shirt then I went back downstairs and Spencer handed me a hot chocolate “…we should talk…but I’m not sure I really want to…” she said quietly, then I walked over to her side of the counter, then I saw the way she looked at me, and I pulled her into an embrace and she put her hands behind my back and started to cry again “why did you do it Ashley? Why…I just don’t get why…” she pleaded against my t-shirt that was covered in her tears

“I was scared Spencer…everything between us since Glen just seemed like your release…when we had sex or whatever, it felt like you were using me for your pain…like you didn’t want me anymore…and that scared me” I admitted finally

“you could have told me that before…” she said “instead of sleeping with someone else” she added