I waited at her door not entirely believing the events of the past week. I thought about everything that had happened since that night, hoping and praying she would show up soon…

　

I stood there while Jayce waited for an answer. His goofy grin started to fade slightly when I didn’t respond right away.

"Uhh.. I um.. I have to go."

I walked out, hearing the whispers of my family and friends. I needed to find my father. I reached the hallway and spotted him.

"Where is she?"

Just then Jayce and my mother showed up.

"Spencer?"

His voice sounded hurt. I turned to look at him. He looked so confused.

"Jayce, I.. I can’t."

My father must have sensed what was coming and pulled my mother away from what was looking to be a heartbreaking scene. She looked completely bewildered. I sighed and looked at the man who had just asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. He deserved some sort of an explanation.

"I’m sorry. I love you as a person but I don’t love you the way you love me and I never will."

It was true. He was a great guy but I wasn’t in love with him.

"But I don’t understand… why?"

God why did he have to ask?

"Someone else has my heart and that isn’t going to change. I shouldn’t have let this relationship get this far. I tried to change to make everyone happy. But it’s time I make myself happy."

He looked crestfallen and on the verge of tears. I was sad but I couldn’t go on living in denial. I knew who I wanted. Now I had to find her and tell her.

"I really am sorry Jayce. It’s just that.."

He cut me off before I could finish.

"Spencer it’s okay. I kind of knew you wouldn’t say yes but I had hope. Things never seemed one hundred percent with us but I had hoped I was imagining it. I guess that means all there is left to say is good bye."

He pulled me in for a quick hug, then gave me a sad smile and turned to leave. It broke my heart a bit to see him walk away but I couldn’t do anything about it. I couldn’t subject myself to a lifetime of lies. Not anymore.