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    The Architecture of Falling… – (Chapter: All Wrong.)

    Story written on December 10, 2007 by goaskalice.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=17218
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    Ashley attempts to become a recluse. Kyla isn’t having it.

    She said no.

    It was plain and simple and heartbreaking and irrefutable.

    So I let her go. I allowed her to enter and exit and pause hesitantly through a series of literal and metaphorical doors and out of my bodily house. I didn’t call out to her and I was no longer willing to beg.

    Because she was right.

    We both knew that I couldn’t follow her. It just hurt to have it said when I could easily silence the insistent truth in my mind by imagining her curled up next to me in some future bed. I imagined covers pulled up to our necks and arms wrapped so tightly that they could break us safely into a million satisfied pieces.

    But it wasn’t easy. Because letting go of what you want never is. In fact, it’s one of the first lessons life presents you with, but I had to re-learn childhood lessons in the absence of Spencer Carlin. The infantile begging and pleading and refusal to give in to the obvious yet dangerous facts just proved the point further.

    Christmas is an ironic hell. I stay in my room, in the darkness, waiting for her to call. Waiting for her to give and break and fall and push gentle waves into me. But instead I received a generic “Merry Christmas” text message that I’m sure she sent to everyone. Maybe I was everyone now. Maybe she had forgotten that quickly.

    “Ash…”

    Kyla stands in the doorway. I have no idea how long she’s been there. But probably long enough to hear me curse that dreaded text message.

    “Ky…”

    “You can’t stay in here all night, ok? It’s Christmas. We miss you.”

    “Trust me, mom doesn’t miss me.”

    “Fine, then I miss you.”

    “I can’t, Kyla. Sorry.”

    “You can’t do this forever. Spencer is gone and I know that’s hard for you, but you can’t lock yourself in this room and stop living life.”

    “That’s not what I’m doing. It hasn’t even been that long.”

    “It’s been long enough.”

    “Ky, just leave me alone, ok?”

    “No, not until you agree to come downstairs and endure the torture that is a Davies Family Christmas.”

    “Well, when you say it like that…no.”

    “Ashley!”

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    4. Holy hell, are you freaking kidding me?! So was not expecting Spencer to have a girlfriend. I’m trying to stay positive and think that she obviously can’t love this Megan since she never let anyone in before Ashley. Boy did you come back with a bang. So happy to have you back though because I’ve missed this story.

    7. Oh hell…(insert another expletive here) Spencer cheated on her girlfriend with Ashley…no wonder she wouldn’t allow the brunette to go home with her. Heartbreaking… Anyway, welcome back! I’ve certainly missed this amazing story and and it most definitely was filled with heartache, but it hurts so good. PMS

    9. Well I didn’t see that coming, but maybe should have..as Kyla says Spencer is scared and basically has been closed off emotionally for two years now..change doesn’t happen over night I know that, but her blase attitude, frankly sucks..especially for Ashley..can’t wait to see what happens next…PMS!!

    11. Whoa…Ash really really needs to move on…spencer is a mess, a selfish, self depracating, and inconsiderate mess, and who the hell wants a person like that in their life?Kyla is right…no one wants a person who feels that can only be happy if they are with a certain person.Spencer kinda sucks and Ash needs to realize this and get over it as best she can.*spence, you waaaay suck :(*

    12. That is just plain wrong, Spencer is a total bitch for doing that. I’m sorry dead paarents or not she knows damn well it’s wrong and if I were Ash I would be a mix between even more heartbroken and just down right pissed off and ready to forget her and move on. I’m so glad that you’re back and might I say better than ever! Please pms!

    14. I did not see that coming. Spencer has more problems than Ashley can deal with, I know she loves her but I think both of them need to be ok with themselves before they can be anything serious..so happy your back i have been in serious withdrawls..PMS

    15. frank and beans that sucks for ashley! that last sentence kinda slapped me in the face, definitely did not see that one coming!! great way to come back to us! glad you’re trip went well, can’t wait for the next post… i’ve missed your masterpieces!

    16. O_O My heart like literally just dropped to the pit of my stomach, or at least that’s how it feels. I seriously feel like crying. Spencer…what the hell? Why? Did she have a girlfriend when she was with Ashley? So many questions, please give us answers. I’m actually feeling a little depressed now, but I’m glad you’re finally back. This story is amazing, I really love it. PMASAP!!!!!!!

    21. Holy hell, are you freaking kidding me?! So was not expecting Spencer to have a girlfriend. I’m trying to stay positive and think that she obviously can’t love this Megan since she never let anyone in before Ashley. Boy did you come back with a bang. So happy to have you back though because I’ve missed this story.

    24. Oh hell…(insert another expletive here) Spencer cheated on her girlfriend with Ashley…no wonder she wouldn’t allow the brunette to go home with her. Heartbreaking… Anyway, welcome back! I’ve certainly missed this amazing story and and it most definitely was filled with heartache, but it hurts so good. PMS

    26. Well I didn’t see that coming, but maybe should have..as Kyla says Spencer is scared and basically has been closed off emotionally for two years now..change doesn’t happen over night I know that, but her blase attitude, frankly sucks..especially for Ashley..can’t wait to see what happens next…PMS!!

    28. Whoa…Ash really really needs to move on…spencer is a mess, a selfish, self depracating, and inconsiderate mess, and who the hell wants a person like that in their life?Kyla is right…no one wants a person who feels that can only be happy if they are with a certain person.Spencer kinda sucks and Ash needs to realize this and get over it as best she can.*spence, you waaaay suck :(*

    29. That is just plain wrong, Spencer is a total bitch for doing that. I’m sorry dead paarents or not she knows damn well it’s wrong and if I were Ash I would be a mix between even more heartbroken and just down right pissed off and ready to forget her and move on. I’m so glad that you’re back and might I say better than ever! Please pms!

    31. I did not see that coming. Spencer has more problems than Ashley can deal with, I know she loves her but I think both of them need to be ok with themselves before they can be anything serious..so happy your back i have been in serious withdrawls..PMS

    32. frank and beans that sucks for ashley! that last sentence kinda slapped me in the face, definitely did not see that one coming!! great way to come back to us! glad you’re trip went well, can’t wait for the next post… i’ve missed your masterpieces!

    33. O_O My heart like literally just dropped to the pit of my stomach, or at least that’s how it feels. I seriously feel like crying. Spencer…what the hell? Why? Did she have a girlfriend when she was with Ashley? So many questions, please give us answers. I’m actually feeling a little depressed now, but I’m glad you’re finally back. This story is amazing, I really love it. PMASAP!!!!!!!

    41. WTF spencer you won’t let ash in but bam you have a girlfriend at home. god ashleys heart is probably broken into small pieces now. great update and yay!!!you’re back. i missed this fic. pms!!

    42. WTF spencer you won’t let ash in but bam you have a girlfriend at home. god ashleys heart is probably broken into small pieces now. great update and yay!!!you’re back. i missed this fic. pms!!

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