A/N: Italics are flashbacks.

May 20, 2007

            I can’t believe she got mad at me. I  mean she wanted to know what was up, so why flip out on me? Okay, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration, but still. It’s not like I did anything wrong, so why the hell did I apologize?

I sent her a text later that night.

“Hey, I think I figured out what was bothering me.”

“What is it”, she replied rather quickly.

“It’s just that what you told me yesterday kind of bothered me, and I just want to know that I can trust you.”

“You should know by now that I won’t do anything to intentionally hurt you and if you don’t then maybe we shouldn’t be together”, she retorted.

“ I don’t mean it like that. I  do trust you, I just, I don’t know. I’m sorry.

“It’s okay.”

“I love you alright and I’m sorry.”

“ I love you too and it’s alright, but babe I have to go I’ll talk to you tomorrow”, she said.

“Okay, goodnight.”

 Talk about stupid and desperate right? I don’t get it. Whatever.

I’m talking to her right now. Tomorrow is our one month anniversary. I’ve only really known this girl for a month, but I really like her and I really care about her, and it scares me how fast it’s happening. And what else is really weird is that I haven’t lied to her once. I don’t do that a whole lot.

“So, have you finished your song for me”, she asked.

“Yeah, I finished it yesterday.”

“So, are you going to play it for me tomorrow?”

“If you want me to”, I said.

“I want you to.”

“Alright. Will you sing something for me?”

“Um….”

“Please……” I started doing my little begging thing.

She’s really shy about her singing. Why, I don’t know. Eventually she caved. Yes!! I’m good when I want to be. So we continue our conversation and around 10:00 she starts freaking out on me.

“I don’t think I can do this”, she says.

“What?”

“You’re fifteen.”

“I know that.”

I’m thinking like where the hell did that come from.

“You’re fifteen and I’m eighteen. I could go to jail for this”, she said.

“Okay, I asked you in the beginning if my age bothered you”, I said starting to get a little pissed.

“I know I said it doesn’t bother me but I don’t know anymore.”

“Can I ask you something”, I said a little nervous.

“Yeah, sure. What is it”, she responded.

“Does our age difference bother you at all?”

“No, not at all babe. Does it bother you?”

“No, I just wanted to make sure it was okay with you”, I said feeling a little more relived.

“No, I’m fine with it.”

“Okay, you need to get some sleep and we talk about this tomorrow”, I said really not wanting to continue this.

“Fine, goodnight.”

“Goodnight.”

What the fuck was that? One minute we’re all “I love you , I love you too” and then that. I’m really…. I don’t know what I am after that. I have a serious headache right now. That’s the one main thing with females that piss me off. They can get so overly emotional in the blink of an eye and you’re left wondering what just happened. I know I said guys piss me off earlier but at least they don’t have such dramatic mood swings. And I don’t really hate all guys just the ones that act like major jerks which are most of the ones at my school. But anyway that was crazy. I hope she cools down a bit by tomorrow when I talk to her.