I had stopped crying by the time Ashley got there.  It only took her about fifteen minutes, but the fact that she was coming made me feel better.  She rang the doorbell, and I quickly went to answer it.

"Hey gorgeous."  She said as she handed me a while rose.

"Hey."  I said taking it in my hands and smelling it.

"You alright?"  She asks.

"I am now."  I say smiling at her.

I put the flower in some water.  My head is spinning.  I always used Jessica as an excuse to stay away from Ashley.  When I left her the first time, I said it was her career.  When I left her the second time, I said it was because she lied.  The third time, it was her decision.  Jessica was always my excuse to stay away from Ashley.  Now, she is standing in front of me.  I have no girlfriend, and we have agreed to live in the present instead of the past.  We’ve both made mistakes, and we both said we’d be willing to move on.  So, what’s my excuse now?  With nothing, I’m vunerable.  Standing here with no where to hide.

"What’s going on, Spence?"  I asked.

"I came home.  Jessica was in my bed with someone else."  I say.

"What?  Bitch."  That is all Ashley says.

"Yeah, her ex.  She said that she came to talk, and that is what ended up happening."  I say.

"I’m sorry Spence.  I should have told you."  She says.  What?  Did Ashley sleep with Jessica?  Oh hell no.  If that happened, I’ll die right her on this spot.  I’m just staring at her, and I think she finally realizes why I’m looking at her like that.  She always could tell what I was thinking by looking in my eyes.  "No, Spence.  That isn’t what I meant.  She hit on me in the recording studio.  That’s why I called you, but I just couldn’t tell you.  I knew that she’d probably say it wasn’t true, and I couldn’t deal with you being mad at me again.  It look me so much time to get you back at least being my friend, and I couldn’t take the chance of loosing that again."

"It’s ok, Ash.  I understand."  I say.