I left Ashley standing out side, the darkness surrounded me and I tried not to think about the nothingness, I can’t stand the darkness but I guess being blindfolded for months as a child will do that to you huh?

Sitting down I shut my eyes trying to recall a memory of a time before the Carlin’s but for a memory I could see in my mind before seeing it in the shack. The moment I found out that I wasn’t a natural born Carlin well I don’t know but it felt like there was this hole in my soul and my heart that I never knew was there yet still felt in my day to day living if that makes sense.

Giggling brought me out of my mind opening my eyes the darkness was replaced by a bedroom, it wasn’t something I remembered which made me angry, they took me away from my real family and it hurt.

I could see my self, I guess ten months old or so sitting on the floor with a blanket over her head giggling like crazy, a smile wants to creep up my face but I hold back, “Where’s my little Jay?” Robin, she had wavy brown hair and piecing blue eyes that matched my own. She looked everywhere as if she couldn’t see the little girl obviously hiding under the blanket.

A minute later the girl took the blanket off, “I here mommy!”

Robin dropped down so she was eye level with, I guess I’ll just call little me Jayden, so she was eye level with Jayden giving her a brilliant white smile, “There you are baby…you hide so good,”

“You taught me mommy,” Jayden giggled, damn was I a happy kid or what I can’t remember a time I laughed so much but Robin didn’t mind she just laughed right along with me.

“What are my two beautiful girl’s doing?” Susan questioned leaning in the doorway, Robin was lying down in front of Jayden so she turned to see her wife while Jayden got up and ran to Susan’s open arms.

“Mama home,” Susan swung her daughter up to her hip while walking further in and sitting next to Robin who was still lying down.