Spencer sat at the beach for over an hour just getting her thoughts together. I can’t believe she would do this to me. I loved her with all of my heart and soul. I was ready for her to be my first time but all she did was fuck me over again. I can’t believe I fucking believed her when she said she would never do it again after the third time. It’s not even the fact she cheated because I knew she was going to do that but with my mother?!?!? Eww. How could this happen the woman I’ll always love and the one who was supposed to always love me. Suddenly Spencer’s phone went off shaking her from her thoughts.

"Hello?" she said without looking at the caller id.

"Hi," Sherry said suprised that Spencer had actually answered the phone "How are you doing? You okay?" Sherry said rambling on trying to keep Spencer on the phone.

"What do you want? I don’t have time for this. So say what you got to say so I can get on with my life!" Spencer let out in a harsh tone.

"Umm I wanted to talk to you about what you just saw. You know explain things to you?"

"What?! How the fuck are you going to explain fucking my mother on our one year annivarsary?! I can’t believe I fucking love you. I have to be the dumbest person on the earth, and to think I was going to actually have sex with you tonight!" Spencer said yelling into the phone.

"I know okay..Wait you still love me?" Sherry said with hope behind her voice, because regardless of the fact she cheated she did love spencer and wanted to marry her one day she could never grasp the fact of being with one person for the rest of her life.

"Yeah I still fucking love you but it doesn’t matter that was your last and final chance. I don’t give a damn what you have to say, how sorry you are, or how much you miss me I’m done. I’ll be over to pick up my things tomorrow." Spencer shut the phone off and closed it. She pulled herself up off the sand and started her walk back to her car.

She turned the key in the ignition and her and sherry’s song started to play Pimp In Me by J  holiday.  Spencers tears started to flow again. She didn’t bother turning off the radio just sat and let all the pain, drama, frustration, tears, and heatache sherry had cause feel her mind.

By the time Spencer pulled into the drive her collar was soaked with tears she cried and her eyes where redder than a pint of blood. Spencer’s dad was suprised to hear her walk through the door.

"Hey honey why," He stopped midsentence when he saw the sight of his daughter before him. Authur wrapped Spencer in his arms as she continued to cry. He stroked her hair trying to get her to calm down. Authur pulled back and looked Spencer in her eyes. "Do you want to talk about what happened tonight?" Spencer just shook her head no as tears continued to fall. "Are you hungry?" Spencer just shook her head again. "Okay honey. How about I just take you up to your room and you get some rest." Authur lifted Spencer up in his arms and carried her to her room. He changed her into some PJ’s and tucked her in.

In Spencers room:

Spencer thoughts:  This hurts too much. Love should never feel this way. I never thought that I would feel pain that would make me resort to this. Spencer took the blade in her hand and slowly swiped it across her wrist. Grimacing as she felt that first sting. Then she felt that sudden wave of bliss and swiped the blade again acroos her perfect flesh making a X across her wrist. She kept slicing away until the only thing only mind was how to stop the bleeding pouring from her wrist. 

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