Ashley paced back and forth, her gown flowing behind her, mind whirling with thoughts and emotions that didn’t make sense.

Victoria sat and watched as the young girl past her yet again, her green eyes following each movement the brunette made, “Are you sure?”

“Yes,”

“Today?”

“Yes Ashley today,” Victoria had been trying to convince the young girl that today was the day that the troops were do back, “What are you going to do?”

Ashley stopped and dropped her hands hard against her sides with a loud sigh, “I don’t know,”

“Have you opened them at least?” she shook her head, “Why not?”

“I’m afraid what might be in them,” she sighed, “She lied to me…” she growled out.

“But she apologized,” Victoria reminded her. Ashley had been so depressed since the departure and it took her a whole week to get the truth out of the girl, well she was surprised to say the least that Spencer was a girl her self and not the boy everyone thought she was.

”I know,” Ashley took a deep breath, she really did know how sorry the blonde was but something just felt wrong, all the feelings she had she thought they were for a man, a man her father would approve of, a man she would be allowed to marry and in her mind she’d be happy with him. Spencer had her whole heart and there was no way she would be allowed to live a peaceful life with another woman, she would be promised to a man, her father and mother would make sure of it and Ashley didn’t want to be married and only give Spencer a small piece of her when ever her husband was away, it was wrong and unfair to both of them.

“Well?”

“I don’t know Vicky,” Ashley felt like she was going to cry but she was never one to be so emotional so held back, “I want to be with her and tell her she’s forgiven but there is another part of me that wants to forget about her and push her away so we both won’t have to deal with the pain of knowing we’ll never get to really be together you know?” she asked plopping down next to her friend.

“I can’t say what you need to do but what ever it is you need to follow your heart,” Victoria wrapped her arms around the girl, “What ever you do I want you to be happy Ash cause you are like a my sister and I will stand behind you no matter what.”

“Thanks,” Ashley loved Victoria the woman always knew what to say and when to say it to make her feel better.

“But you have to think fast Ash they should be here before night fall,” Victoria kissed Ashley’s temple and left the brunette there to think.

Ashley paced back and forth yet again and finally came up with her answer, she just hoped it was the right one but before she told Spencer she sat down and started reading the letters the girl had written her and she’d yet to read before hand.

TBC..