Tonight is the night of my big date with Michelle. Well it’s big because she’s the first girl I’ve gone out with since Spencer. So I’m a bit nervous. I can’t help it. I just hope things go well. Michelle and I agreed that I would go pick her up. We’re supposed just got to Santa Monica Pier You know do the whole ride and game thing. Maybe walk on the beach a bit.

“Dad, I’m leaving. I’ll back.” I call out into the house as I run down the stairs.

“One am, Ashley. That’s it.” I hear my dad call back

I just sigh and call back, “I know.”

With that I ran out the door. Michelle should be already waiting for me.

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“So what’s the plan tonight Spency?” Chelsea smiles

I just shrug my shoulders and stare at the ceiling. The myspace email from Ashley replaying in my mind. She’s going on a date. A fucking date. Damn it. This just sucks. It’s killing me. Thinking about her actually holding someone’s hand, kissing someone’s lips, touching anybody else drives me insane. It’s actually making me physically ill. My stomach is one huge knot not to mention how my heart is feeling. It feels like somebody is physically hitting it with a hammer.

“Spencer will you say something?” Chelsea snaps at me annoyed

“Oh sorry, umm, I don’t know. Whatever you want is fine.” I mumble apologetically. I feel bad. Chelsea has been here for over an hour and I’ve barely said a word to her.

“Will you stop thinking about Ashley and move on?” Chelsea ask softly

I just look at her annoyed because she read my mind and say, “Whatever.”

“Ashley is a great girl but you guys broke up. So stop mopping around and lets go do something. I don‘t like seeing you like this.” Chelsea says cheerfully

I just sigh and nod my head. Chelsea knows me so well. Sometimes I wish she didn’t. She can look through some of my walls sometimes and it scares me.

“So how about we go to the pier?” Chelsea asks hopefully

“Okay, let’s get out of here.” I say as I jump off my bed

“Are your parents going to be okay with it?” Chelsea asks as she grabs her purse