So I’m walking down the boardwalk, just relaxing. It’s been a couple of days since that nightmare at the restaraunt. Ashley keeps calling, but I won’t answer. I take a seat on a bench, sipping on my Fuze. Almost as if on cue, my phone starts ringing.

 "When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you’re sure you’ve had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don’t let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes."

Yes. I chose one of the saddest songs in the world for Ashley’s ringtone. I ignore it, just staring out at the beach. I refuse to go to our spot anymore, mainly because I’m afraid she’ll be there. Now I’m getting a text.

It’s rude not to answer.

Then another.

Turn around.

I groan, turning around. Dear God, No. I turn around, and there she is. I roll my eyes, turning back towards the ocean. Apparently I’ve managed to succesfully piss off God in my few days back in CA.

"I know you don’t think I deserve it, but the least you can do is be polite."

I stand up, turning around to face Ashley. "What do you want? I told you I didn’t want to be friends. I’m not sure there’s anything else to say Ash."

"I still love you."

When she speaks those words, I’m immediately angry. I shake my head no. "No. No. You lost the right to say that to me a long time ago." I start to walk away, but I can hear her following me.

"And I know you still love me. I’m not giving up. The biggest mistake I ever made was giving up on us back then."

I pivot suddenly, coming face to face with her. "THAT was the biggest mistake you ever made?" I shake my head, turning around and continuing to walk away. "Not the one where you cheated on me, no. Not the one where you lied to me AFTER that about whether or not you had slept with anyone. Those were all trivial mistakes."

She grabs my arm, turning me around and pinning me against the boardwalk rail. "Stop it." She leans in, really close to my face. "I made alot of mistakes. I understand that. But you know that I still love you now, as much as I used to." She bites her lip a little, looking at me. I should probably be trying to get free at this point, but my body is unresponsive. "I tried so hard to make things right between us, but it was never enough for you. So yes, giving up on us is my biggest regret." She leans in even closer. "But I refuse to make that same mistake twice." She starts to kiss me, and for a minute I just stand there, letting her. God, it has been so long. I don’t break out of my trance until she moves her hand up to cup my neck, in the way she knows I love.

I push her away, getting free. "No. I’m not doing this."

"Why?"

I just shake my head, starting to walk back down the boardwalk. "Because I gave you everything, and it wasn’t good enough." I keep walking this time, and she doesn’t follow.

So I’m pretty sure I might stop this one. But I dunno. Thoughts?