spencer pov

i wish i could say things have been beter but they havnt things have gone downhill between everything.i should feel i dont know,happy too have two very beautiful girls fighting over me and willing to do anything to get me but i dont becouse i dont want that i just dont know what i want.

tings with ashley havnt gotten any better she wont give up i talked to her and it ddnt work she keeps sending me stuff asking me out then she throws the freind card and says stuff like’i though we were frends,your not a very good freind if you wont even go to the movies with me’and give me a guilt trip on how we dont see eachother anymore

 and things with madision are bad realy bad more and more everyday.shes been how to put it more agressive,hands on to the point where she hits me.ill never forget the first time she hit me

it started like every other argument about how ashley wants me and how i love her chacing me and i want to be with her and blah blah blah well this one was different she was more mad than usual i guess i could put it and one thing lead to another and she hit me a simple open handed smack too the face that hurt like hell.as soon as she hit me i could see she didnt mean too the regret was clear on her face she beged me to forgive her and i did then it happened again and again i could see the regret on her face but this time instead of begging me to forgive her she broke down completly i held her until she stoped we had a talk wich consisted of her being for forgiveness adn in the end i forgave her have you ever heard the saying’fool me one shame on you,fool me twice shame on me?"well were past 2 and were past 3,4,and 5

i feel like i deserve it now like most the time i think’if i did what she asked she wouldnt hit me’so i do what she ask i try to keep her happy i made her a promise i wouldnt leave her and i wont i dont break promises so ill stay with her