To the person that I thought I was going to spend my life with this is just something to let you know my true feelings.

What I thought was true turned out to be false. I cant remember the last time that I have actually cried because of so much hurt and pain. I thought you really cared for me, I thought you had a bigger heart than what this is turning out to be. I never knew that something like this could hurt someone so badly but I guess I was so wrong. The only person that I actually cared for hurt me so badly but, how did I do anything wrong? No I did the only I knew how to do and that was open my heart and love them. I am aching inside the tears I cant hide. So I am so much better now after all the tears and the hurt I realized something that you are only making me stronger and I will no longer hurt or cry any longer. I am actually mad at myself because, I let this bother me so much, and I cried, and shed so many tears behind something that I could have avoided. Well really you cant help yourself if you think you found love, and you put so much trust in someone to be hurt so badly well that is like someone just taking your heart and putting a million knives trough it. I know what though I will never allow my self to feel this way again because from this day on I am going to act the way I should have acted a year ago after feeling hurt that is similar to this. I knew I should have kept my word on not letting anything bother me. From now on I am going to be alone until the Lord above decides that the time is right for me to be with someone. I am going to accept the fact that this is only a sign telling me that I can do so much better than you. I hope that you can understand that I do love you and really do care for you but I will not be hurt by you or anyone else ever again. You told me you loved me and that you want me to be your wife and all I could do is smile and say I will love you forever no matter what. I did not lie because I will I just have to live my life for me and enjoy my life. If you can only see things the way that I see them, you would know that I have to love you dearly because what young girl just getting out of high school at 17 do you know saying that she will marry anyone. STOP HERE think about it now I was about to marry you at the age of 19 and I still have a whole life in front of me that needs to be enjoyed. I can’t sit around wondering well when she is not with me is she with this person or that person. I can’t do it, I know that the other night when you told me you were going out of town with your friends you were with her because she was at your house, and I know this how because the same gold altima from the picture in the park was the one that was blocking your car. I just thought you should know that I am not a fool okay. I was hurt more than anything because you accused me of something someone told you but we said we will never let anyone come between us. Then all of a sudden the very next day I am hearing that she is your new girlfriend I just really could not believe it because I thought she loves me too much to mess over me or cheat WRONG AGAIN. Now it has been four days since I have been hearing all the different things but only now I know that they are true, when I asked you all you could say was that they were rumors and for me not to believe what I hear. Now I told you yesterday that I will not believe anything someone tell me they saw if I didn’t see it with my own eyes, well I saw the pictures yesterday that she put on her page with you and her in your room at your house. The only thing that I can say to express how I felt when I saw the picture is HURT, HURT, AND MORE HURT. I also felt like you could have been woman enough to tell me that you really did talk to her and that me and you were not going to work, but obviously you could not do that. I cant even begin to tell you the pain and hurt that I am feeling right now, all I can tell you is that I made you a promise to never hurt you and kept it. I have never done anything that could just make you feel the way you have me feeling. I really just wanted to let you know that if it is meant for us to be together then we will be but other than that we will just be friends or just not be anything because I cant continue to let you or anyone else hurt me. I just cant keep doing the same things again and going through it. I gave you my all and you hurt me badly so I just want you to know that I made promises and kept them but you made promises and broke them, if you knew that you were not going to be faithful when you met me you should have left me alone then because noone deserves to feel this way. I just want you to know what I thought was true was only false and that I lost my true love to this.