I didn’t know what I should do after she left.  Every time I’ve chased her in the past, it just made things worse.  She always told me I should just let her cool off, so that’s what I intended to do.  If worst comes to worst, at least I got to see her today.  I leaned back on the couch and went over the options in my head.  Getting back with Spencer would be a dream come true.  When things are working with us, things are perfect.  But there were so many times that they weren’t working.  At least with Lindsay, I know she’ll never leave.  There’s not a thing I could do that would make her leave me.  I love Lindsay, though I question whether or not I’m in love with her.  With Spencer, I was in love with her.  I loved our relationship.  Hell, I even loved her family, once her mom got over her homophobia.  I just don’t want to break her heart.  I know, I know, anyone would see my situation and think ‘pick Spencer’ but it’s just not that easy.  I do have very strong feelings for Spencer though, feelings that came rushing back early this morning.  When she was here in my apartment, I wanted to hug her tight, kiss her lips, and make her mine.  If only life were that simple.

I couldn’t stay here locked up in my apartment all day, I decided.  I straightened myself out, and left my apartment.  I walked down the street a few blocks to the recording studio where I was working on my follow up album.  I grabbed a guitar but couldn’t seem to focus.  This wasn’t working, but I needed something to do.  As I was walking back to my apartment my phone vibrated in my pocket.  I had received a text from Spencer.

Spencer *txt* Sry 4 storming out

I found a bench and sat down.  It was better than being in my lonely apartment.

Ashley *txt* I dserved it

Spencer *txt*  no come to tnksgvng tmrw

Ashley *txt* what time

Spencer *txt* noon

Ashley *txt* yeah cya then

Spencer *txt* cya

I grinned from ear to ear.  Of course I was going to have to suffer through dinner with the Carlins, but at least Spencer would be there.  I think it’ll make her happy with me being there.  She didn’t seem herself today.  Ohio has definitely changed her.